This week has been extremely incredible in learning HOW to better worship the Lord. It's been quite an experince for me. I'm definitely the type of person who will dance a little and lift my hands slightly, but the whole lifting my hands high, shouting to the Lord, thanking God continuously, etc. is just not something I've ever enjoyed. To me, it's a way for people to be seen and get attention, but this week has really changed my perspective on some of these things.
As for hands raised, I just never understood WHY. One night though, the speaker had us raise our hands and told us this is the international sign of surrender and can mean "take me father, lift me to you". I'd never thought of that before, and to say the least, I've surrendered a lot to God since then!!
During the services we would sing phrases repeatedly. At first it was a little strange but I really enjoyed it for some reason. I started to realize that the more I said a phrase the more it resonated with me. We were meditating on what we were saying until it sunk in and we actually believed it. This was a beautiful thing, to resonate on "I am a child of God", not just singing it and going on with our day, but saying it over and over so that I could realize, WHOA I AM a child of GOD!!!
We would enter into worship with an attitude of thanksgiving, which took me a back. At first, we were asked to just thank God out loud for anything, and I realized how unthankful I was. I didn't know what to say and I wasn't sure how to go about it. Then I started realizing that I have soooo much to be thankful for and I've done a really crappy job of letting God knowing what He means to me and that I am appreciative to Him. I had a night this week, while everyone else was praising that I thanked God for about 30 minutes, and I couldn't stop. It just kept coming and coming!! How is that not something that we do naturally??
We've been learning a lot about how the Holy Spirit works as well. I'm aware of the Holy Spirit and truly believe that God can fully heal people, but I don't really believe that God can use ME to fully heal. Which to be honest is kind of ridiculous because He sends the Holy Spirit on His children and I know that He lives in me, so there is no reason that I shouldn't be able to heal. But it's just not something we practice in America like we should. Last night, though, we learned about prophesying. It was amazing, I actually prophesied over someone!! It was like a slap in the face when I did it unknowingly and more than once. But I'm learning a lot about how powerful the Holy Spirit can be if we honestly trust Him.
