WOW. Hi!! It’s been a minute. I have plenty of reasons why I haven’t written as many blogs here lately, but I don’t want to make excuses. Because the main reason, one that I’m not necessarily proud of, is much more accurate.
I‘m intimidated by this trip. I’m scared to fundraise because I have a fear of getting rejected by people I care about. I forget time and time again that Abba has promised this, and that He is always faithful to His promises. I’m struggling to remember that this isn’t about my capabilitie, but about Him glorifying Himself through me.
I think people see the glamorous side of the World Race, and assume that’s all it is. Fun times traveling around the world, while a team member plays guitar and everyone sings Jesus Loves Me or something. The thing is, that’s not the reality of this thing. The reality is stepping on onto the water with Abba, leaving all boats and life jackets behind. And sometimes it gets to you. It gets to me. And it can become so intimidating and heavy that I can‘t hold it.
But I know that’s the enemy talking. I know I’m capable not because of who I am, but because of whose I am. I am a child of the Almighty God, The Abba above them all. I‘m going to do this thing because He promised I would. And that is all the comfort I need.
