Hey friends!
It’s my first post… This is a little nerve-wracking. Here goes.
So I’ve been putting this ‘blog’ thing to the side for a few weeks now, because it’s really not my thing. I don’t feel as though I’m good with my words and honestly, the whole idea of putting my thoughts on display for the internet world to see, just doesn’t quite sit well with me. But, I decided to give it a shot because God has been so faithful to the longings of my heart and I wanted to share what He’s been doing in my life since I made the decision to be apart of the World Race.
Three weeks ago, I made the decision to switch from a January route to an August route. It has been a roller coaster of a journey to come to this point. There were days when I was 100% sure that this is where God was calling me, and other days where I felt like a complete crazy person for even considering it. God has confirmed to me over and over that this is where He is calling me and I now know and believe with my whole heart that this is it. This is the call. So, I am choosing to be obedient to His calling.
When I was still struggling with the decision of choosing between the January or August route and then when I was struggling to decide if this is even where He is leading me, I kept asking the Lord for a sign, for Him to confirm in me that this was or was not where He wanted me to go. South Africa and Thailand are two countries that have been on my heart since I first considered the World Race. Only the Lord knows why. The August 2017 “Route 3” is the only route between the January and August routes that goes to both South Africa and Thailand. So, that was it. That was when I decided that switching to an August route is where the Lord was leading me. But, soon after switching, doubt and fear began to creep up. I asked the Lord again for a sign, as if the first one was not enough to confirm it. But, being the God He is, remained faithful even through my doubting. I was driving down the road when Tenth Avenue North’s “What You Want’ came on the radio. The words of this song gripped me, and I knew that it was decided…
Everyday I’ve been feeling the pressure
I always gotta know the plan
It’s a weight that I’ve tried to shoulder
I thought I could, but I can’t
And I’m so tired of chasing dreams
When I am wired to let you lead
You’re changing my heart
To want what you want
To love how you love
And that is enough
There’s no greater plan that I need to know
You only ask me to follow
And want what you, what you want
Oh I’m feelin’ this surrender
I feel myself come alive
And the burden feels like a feather
When I let my agenda die
And I get so tired of my own dreams
But I am wired to let you lead
So many leaders, you ask for followers
So keep on leading, ’cause you’re my Father
I’m sure there will be plenty more obstacles, ups and downs, and questions ahead, but I’m choosing to follow Him whatever that may look like and wherever that may lead. That in my moment of doubt and fear, He will give me grace to do His will. I believe that there is such good ahead, and He is a Good, Good Father. I’m holding on to that. 🙂
