This is a blog post from my personal blog dated May 8, 2015 months before applying for the race. I had honestly forgotten about the post until I stumbled on it recently. It is such a perfect example about how God will give us the desires of our hearts (in ways we could never imagine) if we submit ourselves to Him. So far in my journey on the WR, the reoccurring theme for me is – He is SO faithful and this is just another way our sweet Lord has shown himself.
If you listen obediently to the Voice of God, your God, and heartily obey all his commandments that I command you today, God, your God, will place you on high, high above all the nations of the world. -Deuteronomy 28:1 (MSG)
MAY 8, 2015
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what it looks like to stop building my kingdom, but to build His kingdom. What does it look like to use the little He has entrusted to me and treat it like the multitudes He could offer me? To say “yes” to opportunities that don’t fit neatly into the plan that I have so selfishly made for myself? To break the chains of the past and hold on tight to the hope of the future? To step out upon the waters when He calls, no matter how choppy they may be? To hold on to the tiny mustard seeds I’ve gathered over the past 23 years?
I imagine it’s bold, bright, and colorful with prisms of life I couldn’t begin to imagine. A life spent expanding the kingdom neglects the monotony of the gray areas and in return, God blows our stinkin’ minds with His beauty.
Like most things that involve extraordinary faith, it is terrifying. The kind of terrifying that wakes you up in the middle of the night with crazy eyes and sweaty palms. It’s the kind of terrifying that gives the enemy the perfect opportunity to jump in and wreak havoc on your heart. But God’s provision for us is a force to be reckoned with. Fortunately for us, these fears bring with them the opportunity to be humbled in the most beautiful ways.
That’s the season I find myself in now – a season of humility. I’m astounded every day that my Abba Father has things under control. Bases that I never even thought of – He has covered. He has blessings waiting for me and He has work for me to do. All I have to do is STEP OUT of the gray areas even if I only have a tiny lamp to light my path.
So this is saying no to the gray. No more melancholy. No more monotony. No more playing it safe. He’s calling me to a life of intentional adventure, and I’m ready for the ride.
