April 3, 2017. That was the day I got the phone call telling me that I had been accepted for the World Race. Sometime in July, the worship team at Hope Church lead us in a song called “So Will I”. If you haven’t heard this song, I highly recommend you not only listen to it, but look up the lyrics. Every single line blew my mind as we sang that Sunday. They still do today, but on a totally new level.
You see, as I sang that song for the first time, I was moved to tears, feeling that I’d finally found a song that expressed why I was choosing to do this crazy thing called the World Race. I was going where He sent me, like the wind. I was giving my life to love others, as He has. This has been my “theme song” the whole race. But it wasn’t until just over a month ago that the true meaning of this song hit me.
While in Serbia in March, I’d begun to plan what my life post-race would look like. I was allowing myself to dream of what I want my future to hold. But then a wrench was thrown into those possibilities. Then everything I thought I wanted became the scariest option I could possibly choose. I was left with nothing other than the simple question “will you just wait?”
In Romania, I was listening to worship music and writing down how I simply desired for my heart and dreams to be ordained by God, not myself. Then the song “So Will I” began to play, and I felt this question pressed upon my heart “does the wind only go where I send it for eleven months? Did you give your life or just eleven months of your time?” That wrecked my world!!! I realized that every time I sang that song, my focus was on how I was going around the world on this Race that the Lord has sent me on, giving an entire eleven months to His desires and plans instead of my own. But that was all I’d given Him. I was still hanging on to post-these-eleven-months time. So I surrendered it all. Everything. Every moment, every dream, every plan, everything.
Today, listening to “So Will I” isn’t about the race, but rather the moment-by-moment choice that I have: to do as Jesus does, or not. It’s a decision to be made for eternity, not a definitive amount of time.
So, will you?
