If you don’t grasp the opportunity in front of you, it’s likely going to go away at some point.
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Bob Goff
I got some pretty strange news today. As most of you know I recently got into Clemson University, an unexpected surprise to me and my family. I will admit that the thought did go through my mind that “wow I can go to my dream college with all my friends.” But after that thought my mind went back to the World Race. Not only have I been praying/obsessing about the World race for the past year and a half, but God has already answered so many of my prayers and opened my eyes to amazing people through it. So back to the point, today I got an email from the office of admissions at Clemson declining my deferral request. To say I was taken aback would be an understatement. I mean isn’t this a good thing that I am doing, God?? Don’t you want me to go! So I have been really praying and thinking about what I am supposed to do because there is no guarantee that Clemson is a for sure thing now if I go on the WR. Then I stepped back and thought about how God has led me to this point. Not only has he answered so many prayers, and opened so many doors because of this WR acceptance, but he has been preparing my heart for this for the past few days:
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Yesterday I was listening to a Christian speaker and she said : ”Don’t follow your dreams, follow Jesus.”
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Today I was reading Everybody, Always by Bob Goff and here’s some of the things I took away from the chapter I read:
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“Playing it safe and waiting for assurances in our lives isn’t necessarily bad; it just isn’t faith anymore.”
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“God doesn’t allow these kinds of things to happen to mess with our heads; He uses these circumstances to shape our hearts.
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“Perhaps we don’t get all the answers and confirmations we ask for because God loves seeing us grow. “
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“God may not give us all the green lights we want, but I’m confident He gives us all the green lights He wants us to have at the time.”
I have always struggled with knowing how to “hear” God. Like when you hear those amazing stories and the people say “ Oh God told me to… or I heard God’s voice and I knew what to do” well, I may not have heard a voice from the sky, but that^ is pretty dang close! I have this feeling in my gut that this is what God wants me to do!
I do not know why Clemson did not grant me my deferral request. But you know what, it’s really okay:) Maybe I won’t go to Clemson, or maybe I’ll get in next year! God has a purpose for us in every single thing he does, and he is always trying teach us, if only we would just open our eyes and be expectant of Him. I think this is a point where my faith is gonna be forced to grow, and I am so excited for this journey to see where God takes me! (Prayers for peace in my decision would be greatly appreciated;)
Last year I prayed that God would give me friends that have just as much if not more interest in growing in their relationships with Jesus as me. God answered that prayer in a way I didn’t expect. Not only did he open my eyes to some people who were already near me, but he also gave me all my World race sisters. These girls are some of the most passionate, loving, and giving girls, and I haven’t even met them in person. It has been so cool to see answered prayers because of the World Race!
P.S it has been one of the most humbling experiences of my life to see the donations and support I am getting. I am just in awe of people’s generosity. Thank you!
To brokenness and back,
Midge
