I’m fighting. This week was tough. It was my grandmother’s birthday and all my family came to Mississippi to celebrate her. That’s only 6 hours away from Georgia. Man, do I wish I could see them. I miss my family. I miss big celebrations.
Is my urge to go home my desire, God’s desire, or the enemy trying to get in my head? It is so hard to figure out which one is which. I’m struggling. I burst into tears whenever I think that my sister just moved back home and if I were to go home I would be with her. It makes me question if I am more useful back home rather than in Georgia?
This morning my squad leader reminded me to try to look at this in a big picture. 9 months. These 17 days have been hard, but that doesn’t mean this whole year will be. Where does God want me? Am I just feeling homesickness or is it a calling to go home?
Let me recap last week:
-A big storm moved in so we repacked and moved all of us belongings from our tents into our meeting room. For 2 days we slept, ate, worshiped, and had teachings all in the same room. Thankfully, my tent did NOT flood this week so I had a dry space to sleep in when we moved back in last night! Thanks God!
-My Team Leader shared her testimony with us and it was beautiful. It’s inspiring to see how the Lord works through people through all of their pain. Jesus heals the deepest wounds.
–GOOD NEWS!! We found out we will be LEAVING and actually doing ministry! At the end of October we will be going out-of-state to partner with Samaritan Purse which helps with disaster relief. We will be helping with manual labor to restore some of the damage.
In one of the sessions we had this week, a speaker said that courage is doing things afraid. Wow, you can say that again. Jesus gives me courage.
“Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong.”(1 Cor. 16:13)
Please pray for me that God gives me courage to STAY even through the hard times.
Wishing y’all joy and sunshine,
Madeleine Cooper
