what are you afraid of?
that is the question that has been posed to me this debrief. we have spent a lot of time talking about identity & God’s love. as i sit & see all those around me living from a place of love & truly feeling the love of the Father, i feel a desire in my spirit for that. i want it. i want to say yes, but what’s holding me back. i was then asked the question: what are you afraid of?
so, let’s get real because being vulnerable on this blog may impact someone else back home or it may just teach me that opening up isn’t the scariest thing in the world.
i am afraid of letting people in. i am afraid of letting God in. i am afraid that when i let down the walls & people see what’s there, no one will want to stay & continue loving the real me. as i was sitting on the front porch, the sun peaked over the building & started warming us all with its rays. it was in that moment i heard the Lord say, this is what it’s like. yes, it’s scary to be vulnerable & it’s hard to tear down the walls, but when you accomplish that & let my love fill those places, it’s like sitting & basking in the sun. all you have to do madeleine is sit still, open up & bask in my love. i will fill you. you can have this. the yes in your spirit is there for a reason. you want this & you can have it. all you have to do is bask.
was this a one moment i have walls & the next they’re all torn down & everyone knows everything? no. yet, this is the defining moment in my walk with the Lord where i have decided to stop trying to manage the love of the Father & rather bask in it. once i can accept that God loves me, i can become who i’m supposed to be. i can say yes & dive in for more. i can relinquish fear & control & accept God’s love.
so, this is the new me: fearless, confident & bold in the Father’s love.
