Hello, my name is Maddie and I am indescribably humbled that you have chosen to read my words and join me in this adventure. But I have to tell you that I am a hypocrite.
For example, frequently I wonder why the person in front of me in the McDonald’s line would ever choose to eat at McDonald’s.
Sometimes I yell at my siblings for throwing trash in the back of my car and demand that they wade through the other trash to throw theirs away.
Other times I advise that people who are struggling cling to what the Word says. I once gave a talk about how important and transformative it is to stay in the Word of God every single day. And yet I quite honestly have not opened my Bible since the end of July. My laziness and procrastination have left me putting off getting into the Word. I’m just being honest- as much as I love the Lord, and am overjoyed that I get to thrive in his wisdom and peace and grace every day- I have not prioritized listening to what his Word says everyday.
My goal in telling you this is not to discredit myself or to flaunt or normalize my shortcomings. No, it is to say that on my own I am not qualified to give sermons, I am not qualified to serve people who have “less” than I do, I am not qualified to share wisdom. I will be frequently writing to you out of my brokenness, and truly I am not qualified because on my own I have nothing.
But in Christ I have everything. Because His Holy Spirit dwells in me, I am 100% qualified and still 100% human. I screw up and I do things I say not to do and I don’t always get it right, but I am trusting that in this season and the rest of my life my words give testimony to the work that the Lord is doing in my life. When you read my words, know that they are flowing from the mouth of a sinner. However, when you read my words, I pray and believe that God is going to speak and reveal truth about himself. In my lack of Bible-opening His spirit is challenging me to step out of my laziness and reminding me of how great He is and worthy to be listened to. I know that He and He alone is sovereign and that regardless of my laziness, my pride, my anxiety, REGARDLESS OF MY SIN, HIS WILL IS GOING TO BE DONE.
So don’t trust me, I’m a sinner and a hypocrite writing words.
Trust my Father, the God I believe will use my words for more than anything I could imagine.
