i don’t want to glorify the world race for something that it’s not.
the world race is not just adventuring around cool places, it’s not constant happiness and laughter. it’s not getting to eat all the good food& ice cream. it’s not just what i post on social media.
sometimes it really is, but sometimes it’s being so homesick that all you can do is cry. sometimes it’s leaving ministry with a broken heart because the meal you’re feeding the children is the only meal they’ll receive that day. sometimes it’s having to remind yourself to step back& see the greater purpose to His plan. sometimes it’s experiencing spiritual warfare and having to learn to overcome it. sometimes it’s simply just looking up at the sky and remembering that you are so small compared to the God you get to serve.
i get to adventure on the weekends, not because i think that the world race is a vacation. i adventure because sometimes i need a break from the reality of the things the Lord walked me through during the week. i adventure because it makes me feel free, it reminds me of all of the beauty the Lord created in this world.
there’s still 8 more months that i have left on the world race. that means there is still 8 more months of heart break, of being made new, of constant surrender and dying to myself. it’s hard to put into words the things that i’ve felt since i’ve been gone. there are days when all i want to do is just be alone and there are days when i don’t want to get out of bed, but every day here is a constant reminder of how blessed i truly am. Jesus died on the cross so that I could be here, so that i could be free.
the world race is hard. the world race will break you. the world race will make you very thankful. the world race will change you.
