As I look back on what I just went through for the past 10 days, all I can think is, “What am I getting myself into?” I had several of these moments especially when I was physically and mentally tired but God showed me this is where I’m supposed to be.
Throughout the 10 days we had several field scenarios that could possibly happen and one night my squad was chosen to do a night watch. A night watch is where at least one person on our squad had to be up all night praying or worshipping.
I was not excited about this at all because I was extremely tired and didn’t want to get up in the middle of the night. So I set my alarm and I honestly prayed that it wouldn’t go off, but it did. As I forced myself to get up, I was still in a bad mood about having to get up in the middle of the night and all I could think about was how long I had to pray and worship.
As I got to the place where my squad was doing the night watch, I heard God say Psalm 92. So I opened my bible and the first two verses say “It is good to give thanks to the Lord, to sing praises to your name, O Most High; to declare your steadfast love in the morning, and your faithfulness by night.”
As I sat there and reread those two verses and listened to my other teammates worship, I started to feel peace and comfort. My bad attitude about training camp and having to get up in the middle of the night started to go away. I knew that this is where I was supposed to be.
The next morning when I woke up, I could still here people worshipping and I still felt at peace. I knew I was still going to have my moments when I just wanted to give up and go home. I knew that the enemy was going to keep telling me that I didn’t belong there. I was also remiminded that God has some amazing plans for me and that I do belong there.
There aren’t a whole lot of words to describe training camp and I honestly had several moments where I wasn’t sure if I was going to make it till the end, but I survived and I’m even more excited to see what God has planned for the next nine months.
