I want to bring you, my supporters, into the most vulnerable part of my life. What has been going on inside my head, my soul and my emotions for the past 2 months, up until today.
The past months have been extremely difficult. I haven’t been totally honest in blogs, journey markers and facebook posts. I have been having fun and have loved this experience but with that comes these difficulties. I haven’t had a good night of sleep on 50 days and counting. With that comes anxiety, fatigue and stress. Also it doesn’t help with the possibility of me having another seizure while on the field. I have been tangibly dealing with spiritual warfare. I have never dealt with anything like this in my life. Also I haven’t had a month without being sick. I hate this because back home I am very healthy and being sick while not being in a comfortable place isn’t the best scenario. I’m not here to complain and for all of you to feel sorry for me I want to tell you about what God has done through it.
Last month in Botswana after 10 days of no sleep and really difficult time hearing from the Lord I just broke down in front of a tree outside our host home. It was so tough and I just cried out to God asking Him to help me. I got a challenge from God to pray at 3 am and 3 pm everyday for 40 days and I have been doing that. It’s been tough but being able to talk to God and hear His voice clearly has been one of the great things about this experience.
This past week I had the privilege of going through Deliverance sessions with Zach Larson and Rafael. They work for AIM and are with us guys for Manistry this month in Cambodia. This was easily one of the hardest and most vulnerable I have ever been with any individual ever. I told them
and confessed to God about everything. Sex, Drugs, Alcohol and everything that may have caused me to stumble in these areas.
And let me tell you God really came through and I can definitely tell that I feel more relief and free from my past than I ever have been.
I think all this is happening because I prayed to God a very bold but necessary prayer. I wanted God to break me and put me on my knees because I feel at your worst times is when God can use you the most.
Please continue to pray for me and my squad I just want to thank all of you for reading these blogs and supporting me through the course of my race.
Much Love,
Mack
