I’ve been home for four days and I still don’t really know where to begin with trying to emotionally unpack from camp so I’ll start by talking about my squad, the Sojourners!
There are over 40 of us, all from different backgrounds and all with different quirks and personalities. What’s so amazing about this is that we all became interconnected. There were no cliques that formed within our squad and no one was ever left out. Most of the time it’s hard to trust people you’ve just met but I realized that God gave me these specific people to trust. I didn’t need to worry about whether or not I could trust these people or how much of myself I could give them because God hand-picked them specifically to carry me and all of my baggage. Like, DANG.
When I finally stopped holding back and stepped into vulnerability, I was not disappointed; I was met with safety and love and understanding. My squad mates, my new family, spoke life into me and helped me break free from bondage I didn’t even know I had. I gave forgiveness and let go of shame and bitterness. Most importantly, by opening up and coming to terms with my brokenness, I was finally able to let His peace and healing begin to fill me (this is an ongoing process).
I’m still processing everything that happened at camp (cause there is SO SO MUCH) but this is all I can seem to get out right now. There will be more blogs in the near future (hopefully).
Thank you for reading this and for all of the prayers and support I’ve received! I’m now 50% funded (YAYYYY) and my next deadline is in December. Any amount donated is appreciated!
~love, Maci
