[continued from Part 1…]
I didn’t realize how selfish my thoughts were. Did I think that being a needy missionary somehow excused me from being completely sacrificial and laying down my life for my brothers and sisters? I was missing the point! If I keep pouring myself out, would not the Spirit pour into me again and again?
And the only way I can do any of that is by clinging to His promises, for He has shown Himself to be faithful and I know not what else I can trust. Now, it’s just a matter of time. I’m reminding myself that though I grow easily impatient, God is never in a rush. Just when I doubt, He always blesses me unexpectedly. Why is my Daddy so good to me?? And how can I forget that so quickly?
There’s honestly no place I’d rather be than here, now, living on the edge with Jesus. When we’re in control of our own security, we’re not living in true stability. We live steeped in fear, entitlement, and greed. But now, I feel so free! I’m free to believe in the divine awesomeness that is to come in due time. Whether I have $2 or $2000, nobody can rob me of my riches in Christ! He fills me with inexplicable joy, and I want people to share in that joy with me! (Philippians 4:12-13)
I can still hardly believe that I’m going to be a vessel of love, grace, and power in Jesus to the nations. It’s ridiculous to think back to a stranger prophesying over me nearly 2 years ago that I’d be an intercessor for cities and nations. I remember thinking this person was full of it… Me?! An intercessor?! For the nations? I stink at prayer, and I don’t think I have a big enough heart for the nations… I only recalled this prophecy very recently, and it’s simply amazing to see that God did indeed have a much bigger plan for me than I could’ve imagined for myself.
So while I pray for an appropriate spiritual and material poverty so that I can only be reliant on the Lord, I do also pray for provision. His hand of favor is upon those who seek, believe, and want to carry out His works. I ask you to pray with me for those on my squad who have not yet met the $6500 mark for August 15! I’m unspeakably grateful for all who have contributed so far to help me reach my deadline- I’m almost positive I’ll be able to make it, which means I will be able to launch in September!! After that, I’ll still need around $8500 more to be fully funded, but with the existing monthly pledges, I just need 120 people to commit to giving $50 total to my Race… and I will be FULLY funded!!!
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