In Peru we spent a lot of time driving back and forth to Ventanilla (an hr there and back). It was so fun and exhausting at the same time. I remember that first week in Peru was really hard emotionally. I mentioned that in one of my videos but it was really hard not having deep vulnerable friendship. There was a lack of vulnerability that I hope my team will grow in as this month goes forward. The Peruvian heat was NOT fun. HA! It felt like I came home to Texas during August and well….we all know what that feels like.
All this to say that the month of Peru really taught me a lot about choosing God over myself. I literally would wake up in the morning and say “No, today I choose you and not my emotions.” So for about 10 days, that is all I did and sometimes more than once a day. I had thoughts of wanting to go home because I missed having control of when and where I was going. I wanted to drive my own car and do my own thing.
The best part about choosing Jesus is eventually I ruled my emotions and I started having fun, I opened up more and really was able to be present. I struggle with that a lot. I get so excited to do something or annoyed with a situation that I start looking to the future. We weren’t made to live in the future but in the present. I don’t want to live a life of looking in the future and waiting and then when I get there I don’t even live in the moment because I am ready for the next thing.
I am praying that this month and the next few that I learn to live RIGHT NOW! Not looking for the next “high” but to really be present. I am tired of waiting for life to happen because it’s happening right now!!! I would be hearted broken to get through these next 11 months and look back and realize that I never really lived in it. I would remember nothing and I come back the same, you see thats what happens when we live in the future. Everything that God is doing right now, it stops because we refuse to listen. We are so focused on the future that we forget to ask “hey papa, what do you say about right now?”
Well I don’t want to be that person anymore. I’ve spent 27 years waiting for the next best thing but I declare that RIGHT NOW IS THE NEXT BEST THING.
Alas,
I am absolutely thrilled to be here in Ecuador. We are staying 4 days in Banos for debrief. You might be wondering what that is, so let me just explain. Basically the entire squad travels to a location where we can meet the leaders that are in the states. They fly in and we talk about different things, like what is good and what isn’t so good about our teams. How we are doing personally (emotionally, physically etc), we worship together, we have fun together and listen to teachings and we have one on one with our coaches. Ultimately this is a time to get refreshed and take what we learned in Peru about ourselves and our team and move from one place to the next (emotionally).
Prayer requests:
* Unity
*Deep vulnerability
*Bubbling joy
*fun ministry
* My back would stay protected, its kinda been hurting lately (I have 2 ruptured disks in my lower back)
Stay tuned for my next video and the announcement about Greece. I am hoping to be posting 2 different videos!
Over & Out
Lynzie
