Ukraine Blog 2.
I don’t always like the World Race.
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve thought to myself, all I want to do is pack my bags and head on home because, “I am done, I am just so done.”
I’ve said it more times than I care to admit.
If you think I’m on the World Race as some luxurious escapade around the world.
You’re wrong.
If you think this is comfortable.
It’s not.
If you think this adventure suddenly makes all your dreams come true and problems disappear.
You’re terribly mistaken. Life still happens.
If you think I’m on the World Race to become a cultured, world traveler. I would say,
“That is not my heart’s motivation.”
The honeymoon stage of the race is long over; I am 8 months into this.
During that time, there have been plenty of moments when I could of given up, moments I did.
Even now, if I really wanted to, I could go home.
The World Race has not been a stroll in the park but it's been a choice and some days I have to choose it over and over again.
But why choose?
I choose to be here and present and serving in the capacity I’ve been called to serve in is because of, yes, you guessed, JESUS.
He is without question the stabilizing strength that enables me to continue forward on this race.
He is who enables me to say, “Yes” when I want to say, “No more.”
The purpose that compels beyond all belief to say,
“I am here and I am doing this.”
A part from Him, I can not do this.
Sometimes I really dread being here.
Sometimes I am really in love with it all.
It takes a lot of hard work, sweat (no really,) and tears.
But there are time of sublime joy and breakthrough.
Moments I hear the Father speaking so tenderly to me– in ways I never heard him speak to me before.
Moments I get to sit and rejoice in the work my Father is doing in my brothers and sisters around the world and I remember
It’s all been so worth it.
Every tear,
every difficult conversation,
every moment of sickness,
every prayer,
every praise,
every moment of intense longing,
It has been worth it.
So I will be here until the end- the full 11 months.
When I finally reach the homeland, I hope you can see,
It was worth it too.
I hope you can see how I've changed,
I hope you can see the work of our God in my life.
I hope when I come home you can see in me the face of Jesus.
And I hope beyond all hope that you would know
a new life with Christ is possible for you too.
You have the freedom to choose to Him.
