After my discovery of the World Race in 2010 I acknowledged that if I felt led to I would apply for this crazy adventure. Can you just hear my reluctance?
I mean, let's think about it, I'm leaving everything I know, everyone I love, everything that is familar to do this World Race. I'm living out of a backpack for a year with a minimalist mindset, contrary to the consumer American ideal; It's a stetching way to live, a scary way to live. I was plagued by so many questions.
Can I do this? Can I live out of a backpack? Can I leave my family? my friends? Will I be able to fundraise the money? Can I just give it all up?
Finally, I stopped looking at myself- at all my fears and doubts and questions and just said, "Yes," in faith. Trust was birthed in this surrender as I realized that if I were never to embark on this crazy thing I would always regret it. Most importantly, I realized that my God, my Jesus, was bigger than my fears, bigger than my doubts, and is the answer to all my questions.
2 years of process it took to say YES to the World Race.
I started working on my application in January of this year, in Februray I had my phone interview and finally was accepted to be apart of Race Route 1 leaving Septemeber 2012.
WOOOHOOO!!!
And I am amazed, utterly amazed at His faithfulness. I can hold to so much peace and joy in knowing that His faithfulness is innate, undenaibly who our God is and because it is so, His faithfulness is never contingent on my ever so fickle heart and mind. Thank goodness! This is where He has and is leading me.
I find one word that comes to mind to describe this process I've been in is "Flourish-ion." Now this isn't really a word but, I would like to make and define it as a mixing of two words:
Flourish and Completion.
Floursih: To grow well or luxuriantly; thrive.
Completion: The act of completing or the state of being completed.
At this point, I know, without a question, that God has continually been faithful in pruning me, preparing me and allowing me to flourish for His Kingdom's sake. It's been a process like most things, I have been hesitant, afraid, doubtful, unwilling, excused-filled, and reluctant to fully commit to this year long missions. But, in His faithfulness, He has assured me and transformed my heart; He has brought this desire to "flourish-ion". Now, not only am I willing to partkake of the World Race, but I am fully comitted and so hungry for this this one of a kind oppurtunity.
This is exciting, thrilling, still a bit scary, and all so beautiful!
And I am genuiely looking forward to what lies ahead…
