I realized I am a sinner.
Interesting, considering the fact that the point of Jesus coming was for my sins. However, I think this morning it seemed to resonate with me differently than it had before.
My teammate and I were talking about communicating clearly and discussing how we can understand each other better.
Communication alone is one sure route to true community.
As we began talking, I asked God for a portion of His grace for my teammate because in these situations I typically get defensive and begin the process of beating myself up, however, in that moment I didn’t.
I thanked God for His grace because as I listened to my teammate and didn’t feel the urge once to attack or defend I realized in that moment God had given me a portion of His grace this morning. I asked and I received. As she kept talking I realized that I am beginning to be more and more aware of who I am and who I will be. I am a sinner and I will be a sinner so there is no need to sit and dwell in my sorrows. However, I can accept that I am a sinner and realize God has an infinite amount of grace……should I sin more so that grace may abound? of course not but God is faithful and walks before me, with me, and behind me as I work through my sin. He has given me freedom.
It was brand new today when I realized I didn’t have to fight back to defend my honor. I could walk in the freedom of knowing who I am in God. I could walk with my sister in Christ and work through my junk rather than fighting through it.
I will still have to wake up each day and ask God for a portion of His grace and love and ask that He reminds me of who I am in Him. I will daily surrender and in that, hopefully, I will draw closer to God and to who He has called me to be.
