Fundraising has been one of the most frustrating, but yet rewarding processes I’ve ever gone through. To say it has been easy completely trusting in God that He is going to provide would be a flat out lie. It has been so, so, so hard believing every day that He is going to bring in the money some how, some way. If I said that I never once doubted The Lord during this process that would be another lie. Fundraising has been extremely stressful, having only $1,000 dollars before the first deadline and needing $5,000 more, or at the place I’m at right now, needing around $3,500 in just 18 days.
Now to us, that is impossible if you don’t just have it laying around, but to God that is nothing. See, the problem that I have found in myself during this process is that I don’t trust God for every little thing. Keyword being little. I trust Jesus with my whole life and for every step I take, like leaving everything familiar for 9 months and being put in extremely uncomfortable situations, but I don’t quit trust Him with the day to day things, the “little” things. For example, finding a close parking spot so you don’t have to walk a mile and a half to get into the mall, or something like this, fundraising. I don’t always trust that the same God that created the universe is going to provide $3,500 in just 18 days. But then again I’m sweetly reminded that nothing is impossible for God. A phrase that everyone uses and everyone knows, but a phrase I don’t always believe. That’s one thing that has been so great about fundraising, I’ve realized the difference between knowing something and truly believing it and believing that it will be done in God’s timing. God’s perfect timing.
As I sit here in my favorite Starbucks journaling and completely pouring out my heart to the Lord about how stressed out I am and how worried I am that I’m not going to meet this deadline, the Lord sweetly reminded me that He’s already provided this far, so what makes me think that He is going to just stop now? Doubt. Just stupid doubt that always seems to creep in. And it shouldn’t at all, because guess what.. Jesus cares about the little things AND the big things. Little things that we seem to think He doesn’t care about, He cares. Because He is good. He always has been and always will be, in every situation.
For me, the Lord taught me this lesson while fundraising for a missions trip, my hope and prayer is that the Lord will teach this lesson to everyone, some how, some way because this is a lesson that changes everything. How you view God, how you look at day to day life, everything. It builds everlasting faith.
One song that has really helped me believe that the Lord is going to provide is Shepherd by Amanda Cook.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q39S-w8LSjw&list=PLFC88HTpGTLQCEa2Rjq7QwYOjzZ2pMAlD&index=7
I encourage everyone no matter what you’re going through to give that song a lesson. Thanks for reading what’s been on my heart! 🙂 I pray that it speaks to you and encourages you to believe in our Faithful Father.
Be blessed y’all 🙂
