The best job I have ever had, Squad Leading looks completely different from the Race. Or even from what I excpected it to be. I didn’t expect that it would be as much about my own personal journey, as it is about the squad’s. Instead of partnering with my host’s ministry and it changing from country to country, mine never changes and I don’t have “off days”. Mine is a group of 51 crazy people called Q Squad!
I never thought that my heart would be so full of love for a group of people. Yet it is. As I was sitting in the Kathmandu airport last month charging my device, I gazed at the little clusters of people playing games and scattered amongst the piles of luggage. I couldn’t help but smile. My heart was warm.
“This is my life”, I thought. “This is seriously the best job ever and I never would have known!” I get to love 51 people, be apart of their lives and be an onlooker as they began to allow the Lord to steer their lives. But they aren’t just my job.
They are my friends.
They have made my life richer and deeper.
They have taught me about myself
They have shown me more of what radical love for the nations looks like
They pursue the Father with passion.
They celebrate the little things
They rejoice and mourn together
They are community
I am blown away and so blessed to know every single life on this squad.
Yet life squad leading is different. We are constantly fighting for people, but can only fight for them as much as they are fighting for themselves. I have countless conversations, and with each one I have to walk away knowing that I am not responsible for them. We have a good Father who will walk them through brokenness, processing and teach them more about Himself. It’s not me. As I jump around to different teams throughout the month, I meet amazing hosts and partner with incredible ministries for a few days. It is hard to leave each team after pouring into them. Yet the farther I get into Squad leading the more I realize that it isn’t about me or anything I have to give away. They don’t need me, they need the Father.
It has brought me into a new relationship with the Lord. I have never felt more Holy Spirit presence in my life, than now. The moments where I literally have no words, and then words come out of my mouth, have taught me to live my life in a new way. I am learning to wait on the Lord, continually ask Him what others need and how to be used as a vessel for Him. It has completely changed my perspective on my life. I literally don’t have anything outside the Father and I am beginning to learn how to walk fully led by the Spirit.
Squad leading has taught me a lot about myself and how I want to live my life. It has taught me about rest and what it looks like to be filled up by the Father. The Lord has used it to cultivate new dreams and confirm passions. I feel so much more set up to enter the States again in 2 months!!!
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Fundraising update:
Thank you to all who have supported me for the last year and a half! I am fully funded with the $3500 for 5 months on the field. I am currently over $3600!! I am so grateful to you all! I wouldn’t be the person I am now if it wasn’t for you.
Another opportunity has come up for me to visit Q Squad two more times thoughout the year during their month 7 (July) and month 11(November) debriefs, for a week. I will be able to connect in and continue to pour into their lives during those weeks. Each debrief is $1500. At this point, I am in need of $1200 for month 7 which is needed by May 15th.
If you feel led to give, I am incredibly grateful!!!! Thank you!
