I’m here safe in Atlanta. This process for preparation before leaving the country has been extremely surreal. To be honest, there have been a huge amount of emotions going around that I was unable to put a finger on today. Leaving home and stepping into the unknown was much harder then I had ever imagined. Yet, there is no other place that I should be. Training and more bonding with my squad and team has been good and overwhellming. Some parents came to Launch and said goodbye to their racers today. I felt a tinge of what I felt leaving my family on Sunday. It was hard to walk past tearful parents and racers in the hotel. Yet it was a happy time. There is a lot of getting used to when starting to live with 5 other people who are practically strangers. It’s only day 2 and it’s so evident that there is NO WAY I can do this without Jesus! His amazing grace is so present and I’m starting to get minute glimse of the deeper relationship with Jesus that I desire.
His LOVE is STRONG
A big reason of why I couldn’t put a finger on my emotions today is that I have been relying on myself and gaining confidence from myself. It didn’t work anymore. In fact, it never worked but it looked good (At least I thought so). I took a good time spending with Jesus and was reminded that He wants ALL of me. I’ve been holding back because of unbelief of who He is, what He did and can do. But my Papa God loves me so much that I can’t even fathom. I don’t see that when i am looking out for myself and trying to do it all on my own. Day 2 people! God’s doing awesome things…
