I heard about WR by just a web search for mission trips around the world. I have been on one mission trip before to Belize for a social work experience and have the desire to go again. I have always said that I want to be the change within the word and this would be my opportunity. I have always wanted to get into international adoptions but recently I have been thinking about missions but never would have thought to see myself where I am now. I really want to go to spread the word and love of the Lord, see the world, grow myself as a individual, and work within the trenches of the world to help others. But with this I am totally out of my comfort zone and putting my total faith and life within the Lords hands.
So lets get these fears out of the way first:
- Planes crashing
- Language Barrier
- How far can I push my body physically?
- Spiders, snakes, and mosquitoes oh my!
- Being a complete introvert who loves everyone
- Self confidence
- Not knowing what to say at the right time
- Not confident in my level to be a missionary
- Believing the worst thing COULD happen
- Will I be able to get my tent up and down correctly
- Is this backpack going to really fit everything?
- Preaching??? ME?
- And the overall fear of the unknown
- Leaving my family
- Funding the trip
- Missing my dog Shelly
- Getting sick
- The list could go on and on
But the Lord wouldn’t have called me to the World Race if he didn’t think this was my calling. I love the new song, Come However You are, by City Harbor. The chorus says, Come however you are, Come with all your heart breaks, Come with all the mistakes you’ve made, Lay them down at the cross, Give them to the God who loves you, Hurt, scared, falling apart, Come however you are.
Each and every one of us comes with heart breaks, mistakes, burdens, hurts, fears but the promise of the Lord lets us know that we do not have to deal with these alone we have the Lord! I am thankful that from the next two years I will have some of the best people in my life to him me take on the world and be a kingdom warrior for the Lord.
In all honestly I am just stepping out on a ledge and jumping into something that I may not completely understand all of what I have gotten into but when I understand and hit the bottom I plan on running and going as far as the Lord plans on taking me. I am excited about this experience and chapter of my life and believe that this is what I have been called to do. I know my life has been a cake walk prepared to other people’s lives but I feel that my compassion for others, love to treat others fairly, and my unconditional love will be beneficial to others. I am willing to do whatever I is put front of me even if I am hesitant in the beginning to begin. I want to get as much and more out of this trip and to provide for others every ounce of myself to them without anything to spare. I want to lay myself on the line at the sake of others truly within this trip.
By no means have I ever and did I ever plan on being a blogger so this is the first of many adventures of this learning experience trip. So please bare with me as I struggle through these blogs as I share everything that I possibly can about my journey!
