Hey, This is my first blog in a long time. Yep. It’s been a crazy couple months, But it seems like something changed a couple months ago with my blog writing and I’m going to write this one about that. I’m going to go way back to the end of month 3. I was In Chiang Mai, Thailand. Four squads on the World Race we at a thing called the awakening. They brought a speaker in and we just had sessions and we all went out and did evangelism. You can see the day in the life I video I made for it.

 

During that time something happened.

 

I for some reason got mad that I wasn’t feeling like I was getting used by God. Like I deserve more. I deserve to be better, speak better, do miracles, put my fears behind me and do greater things.

 

After a session I went to my room and started praying. I got mad that my voice is not being used, But then I remembered my blogs and the voice I had with them and how God was using me through them but for some reason I didnt think it was enough.

 

One thing I tell you is I have never wrote before the race. I never liked writing before this year. I sucked at it. I believe I couldnt have wrote blogs like I did earlier this year if it wasn’t for God.

 

That night I was praying for more then what I could be trusted with.

 

Then I thought of the parable in Matthew 25:14-30. Its the parable about the 3 servants that were handed different amounts of gold when the master left.

 

For some reason I treated my blogs like the last servant treated his bag of gold. It wasn’t enough. I want more. I deserve more I thought. After that it’s not that I didnt want to blog. I couldn’t finish a blog to save my life. I would sit down to write one and get half through and not be able to weight another word.

 

How often do we all do this. We have a gift haven to us and then we compare ourselves to the gifts of other people. We start thinking its inferior. It’s not as important. We question why we can’t be like them or that other gifting.

 

How many times do we go dig a hole and throw our gift out because it’s not what we want or how we imagined.

 

What if Its just a testing ground? What if God is seeing what you can do with it?

 

God is calling us to great things but great thing take great care.

 

“His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

Matthew 25:21 NIV