So I’m still trying to get into the habit of blogging. I got told I need to blog more from Mrs. Bev Frederick today! And I know I need to. Thank you for kicking me in the but! and for all the prayers!
I am one that tends to process things internally or person to person. So this is a new thing for me. I’m sure that I will more and more out in the field because I will have so many amazing stories about God moving the world in front of us and in me as well. Oh and also the many many pictures that I am going to be taking of God’s WONDERFUL kingdom. I have been learning a LOT since training camp. I have praying so much more because I realize that is so much more important than I had ever made it. I pray now because I see that lifting up each other is so very important. I want to see God bless every squad member and every family member and every friend I have in every way possible. I love seeing God shine. I actually am doing my first day of fasting as I type. I never thought I would do that or want to do that. Those of you who know me know that I LOVE FOOD. I love it. DELICIOUS. But I was always confused on why people did it. I never understood. So I got up this morning and was reading on it and I came to a few reasons that really stood out. One was to become closer to God. CHECK I am DOWN for that! I mean the place that I reached just during training camp was unreal and I want that more and more. I need to grow closer. I am now a God junkie. I am going to do that no matter what. Another reason that I saw was when Jesus fasted for 40 days to prepare for the Devil’s temptation. I mean I am about to embark on the BIGGEST, l o n g e s t, most important and any other BIG adjective you want to use journey of my life. I want to do so much more than anything I have done. I have been given a whole new definition of the word important. I am selling everything that I once classified as important and not even thinking twice. Part of that new definition is spreading the Kingdom. I have a need to do it. As Lia Frederick (for those who don’t know who she is, she is a VERY inspirational member of the P-squad who pushes me to be better THANKS LIA) said, “I want to be exhausted at the end of the day by how much LOVE I give.” I mean that is so true. I have never been able to put my feelings into words like that. So I steal those whenever I can! lol So with those 2 reasons jumping out at me this morning, I said that is it. I am fasting today.
Work is still sslllooowwwww. I have worked 30 hours in the past 2 weeks. I don’t let it get me down. I know that God will provide. I am selling my stuff so that is providing money that I don’t have. I basically have everything I need to go. Minus a few small things which I will pick up soon. The simple fact that I only have a few weeks left, slowly sinks in more day by day. I think I have found a home for both dogs. I take Lex to meet some people Tuesday and she will pass. She is a great dog. And that is another question that I have had to answer. Permanent or temporary? I have decided with permanent. Just for the simple fact, I don’t know what God is going to have me do when I get back. I may be called to go back out or relocate or ??? So I want to be able to follow that without anything holding me back. And I know I type it easily, it is not. It breaks me, but God has put all this on my heart so he is giving me the strength to do it.
I am also still about $3000 short or being fully funded. I posted something on my FB about if I got 25 people to do $20 month, I would be fully funded! So I know God is at work! And also pray for those that are still working so hard on their support raising. Some are struggling so make sure you life them up every chance you get. That the drive is always there. It can get hard when you don’t see the number rise like you want.
And another VERY IMPORTANT member of my P-squad (COLBY GARNDER) turned me onto some new artists. One is Shane and Shane and I heard one of their songs and it made sense. Cause with everything I was doing in my life, I went to training camp wanting more. And one night Colby and I talked and he prayed over me. I felt nothing. I was like what is going on. This isn’t right. So no more than 20 minutes later we started our famous 3 and a half hours or praise. Well I begged. No I demanded he move. And I want to say this if you ask for that. Be ready for the BEST feeling ever. I was over-whelmed and was LOVING IT.
So here is a song by Shane and Shane called “Beg”.
