Well……it’s September 15th
2011 and I am in Bugiri, Uganda. It is 8:32 am, have been up for about 40
minutes and there has been a baby crying the entire time. And I am laughing
about it for the first time as I am typing this out. For the past 39 minutes,
not so much laughing. Go figure. I am with my second team this month with a
couple more to go. They like to have personal time in the morning and that
means they plug into their ipods and barely register if anyone comes into the
room. So if you have met me at least once, you can imagine how I deal with that.
I am lost! lol I don’t need that much personal time in my life. And if I do, I
watch a movie at night when everyone else is asleep. It’s been interesting for sure, but good
because this team is awesome in its own way.
Yesterday we had a day off so we went back to
Jinja where the squad stayed for a couple days as we came into Uganda. There
was some bungee jumping and some rafting the Nile that occurred too. This off
day was more about the food, electricity and internet. The food is phenom and
where we are at has the most fickle power I’ve ever encountered. So most of our
stuff was suffering from that. And the internet was ok I guess. Better than
nothing.
Well I guess this blog is more to
spread the love that God has been giving me. I recently have been prophesied
over in some great ways and thought I would share it with more than the people
around me. Well I guess it started a couple weeks ago when a fellow amazing
P-squader wrote on my wall informing me that I was a prophetic activator. Now
when I read that, I had to read it again to see what it really said. So I saw
it and was like “I like that!” So I put it in the back of my head to store it
cause it was legit. But it wasn’t til a day later that it clicked. All the
teams we, Sarah and I, had visited had come alive each when we arrived. We
noticed it, but never really put any thought to it to what that really may be.
I mean we are 2 awesome people and who wouldn’t just beam from us being
there!!…..but when it finally hit, it was certainly God’s perfect timing. If
I would have gotten that word before, I think I would have been too bent on
living up to that word. But I didn’t, so I went into it being me and not trying
to do anything but love these people and call out the greatness that I see in
them. God knew when to deliver that word and it was so good. And I still
operate in the same way and nothing much has changed except maybe how I see the
changes.
Another
word I got was a destroyer. One of our team leaders, Kevin Buzzie, told Sarah
that he saw us as a team. I mean we ARE, but this was a little more than just
the simple word “team”. He saw me as a destroyer. Someone who comes in and sees
walls that people put up and goes right for them. I received that word openly. I love that. And
it goes past walls too. I see things that people are working out and can help
them out in many ways. I see things that people are doing that may not be for
their best and can call it out and not allow it to continue. That is something
some struggle with for the sole reason of not wanting to offend that person.
Well if they are struggling with sin, why wouldn’t you want to save them? Seems
pretty selfish yeah? So I have been given a new voice and boldness to care more
about them in the long run than being their best friend at that moment.
And
then another thing that I was called was the most stubborn life giver ever and
I must say I loved that one too. I mean if you have ever met me, you would know
that this has it’s truths to it. And I know those things are true too. I know I
can be a lot to take and that I can be invading at times, but that is simply
how I love. I love to show people that I see them and if that means I poke at
you or put my finger in your ear as I walk by, then so be it. I also go deep
and talk about things that are important, but this is more about the everyday
things. People at first don’t know how to take it, but I think they soon see
that it’s just how I roll. I do the same thing to pretty much everyone. I don’t
just do it to annoy people to death, contrary to what some may believe!!
Those
are just a few things that God has been giving me to show me who I am and that
it is because of him that I am these ways. That he has made me specific to that
so I can love people in a different way. Maybe to catch them off guard or to be
just what they needed. I love every second of it. Doesn’t mean I have it all
worked out. I have my days when I am down. The last 2 things that were spoken
over me came after a morning of me feeling I didn’t fit in with this team. I
knew it was crap and just a feeble attempt from the enemy to mess with me.
Doesn’t mean it still doesn’t work its way in just a little. Later that night
during feedback is when God gave me some words to boost me right back to where
I needed to be if not higher.
These are
just a few examples to why our mouths hold the keys to freeing people from
crap. When someone is feeling down, YOU have the words to lift them up. I
hadn’t told anyone I was feeling out of place. God knew and that’s all it took.
He used others to give me life and they were open to that. We must be willing
to hear and obey God in all things. Especially when it comes to life giving
words. That should be something we do all day regardless of hearing God or not.
Why would we ever choose to keep silent when we see someone keeping silent?
When we keep our mouths silent to speaking life, the enemy will come in and
speak death over them in the absence of the life. So be careful the next time
you think about NOT speaking life. In those cases you don’t…….you’re speaking death DIRECTLY to that person. Something to chew on, cause I know I am….
