I don’t know exactly what to write. God
has been working in my team in ways I don’t know how to explain yet.
It’s still a process, and we are trying to see how God, faith and
healing fit together. It’s difficult to understand, and we have so
many more questions than answers. We know God heals and answers
prayers, but exactly how that process works, we don’t always
understand.
and spiritual struggle. For some unknown reason, I’ve started getting
headaches like I’ve never had before. It’s an aching on the side of
my head that comes and goes but never goes away completely. I don’t
know what’s causing the pain or what to do about it. I even went to a
doctor, but she wasn’t able to give me many answers either. The best
prognosis was some kind of nerve spasm. I have pain medicine to help,
but I know this is only masking the underlying problem.
My team has been very supportivethrough this process. We’ve prayed, fasted and asked God for healing,
but right now, there hasn’t been an answer other than “wait.”
I’ve cried out to God, pleading for an answer or for Him to just take
the pain away, but still I feel left in the dark. I was hoping to
write an exciting blog telling of how God healed me through the faith
and prayers of my team, but unfortunately, that’s not the case. As
I’m writing this, my head is still pounding even after taking
medicine. It’s not terrible pain but very annoying. I’ll admit it’s
scary more than anything. I don’t know what’s going on or what to do
about it.
So, I’m just trusting God. He’s in
control. I know He hears our prayers and that He will answer, but we
must wait. Maybe God has something great to teach me and my team.
Maybe I need to learn to be more dependent on Him rather than myself.
I don’t know know yet, but God does.
While praying about this, I read a
Psalm that really spoke to me in my situation.
How long O Lord? Will you forget me
forever?
How long will you hide your face from
me?
How long must I wrestle with my
thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep
in death;
my enemy will say, “I have overcome
him,”
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord, for he has
been good to me.
God is good. I don’t understand
everything now, but I will trust and wait on Him. Thank you for your
prayers.
