So, the biggest question… Why? Why the race? Why now? Why so long? Why not wait? Why are you even doing this? All good questions, they are! But I once heard from a pastor during a personal bible study, “Isn’t asking why a sign of discomfort and/or lack of trust? So when you feel God is leading you and your too occupied with why questions, its showing doubt within your trust in God and exposes your anxiousness in your walk.” Don’t you agree? once we realize that asking why is actually hurting you, you’ll learn to stop. People consistently pound on me with questions just like these! I’d be lying if I said I had all the answers; But I’m being truthful when I say I don’t care for having answers right now.
Through this adventure of preparation, I’ve experience so many ups and downs. In my faith, in my fundraising itself, in school, in relationships, etc… But I refuse to let these things discourage me. I continue to be steadfast in my walk. It’d be a paradox if I were discouraged but continued to raise money. Not believing this trip could happen but still bringing in money? Crazy right? Two situations that shouldn’t happen at the same time but is possible. Through God, I don’t have to worry about the idea of the “impossible”. Tough isn’t impossible, tough is inevitable. its GOING to happen, yet I will praise Him. once I forget to do that, then the tough will seem impossible to defeat.
As an example of what I’m doing, ill break it down. My town, friends, and family know I care for The National FFA Organization. In some ways, I think of this as being one of my impressive qualities, having it under my belt. I have awards lining my bedroom walls, its reminds me of what I’m good at. But to me, its not what I’m looking for. Though the FFA is important to me and its built me into what I am, its not what should be taking my time and focus. Its not impressive to give all my effort to it, whats impressive is giving up this and everything else that I’m good at to do the work of God. Im not giving up on what I’m good at because I’m looking for an escape in any way. Paul in Philippians did just this. Philippians 3:7-17. “But whatever I gain I had, I counted as a loss for the sake of Christ. Indeed, I count everything as a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Jesus Christ my Lord. For His sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish in order that I may gain Christ.”
I won’t bow to the things of this world as this breath I’m breathing is only borrowed. Jesus has loved me as he found me. I was found before I even knew I was lost. The Love he gives YOU and I, is something we could never deserve and we still get it. Faith is Action. Im taking action. This is the War on Inaction. 2 Corinthians 5:7 “For we walk by Faith and not by sight.” Im grateful for the worry shown for me. Its a form of love and care but Gods got me. Im not crazy, I’m not impatient, I’m not concerned, I’m not stubborn, and I’m not ignorant. Im right where I feel led to be and thats exactly where I want to be.
