Now that month one is over and we are settled in at debrief in the Philippines, I’m starting to really understand how much I have to grow. I believe that we all will always have things to grow and work on but for me God has highlighted some things that could make me a better man of God. My team and I have a history of joking around a lot but sometimes I personally forget to take things seriously, to speak life into people and to encourage them about their future with God. Lucky for us, there is an abundant amount of grace we receive for every kind of sin from big to small.
I feel my role on the team hasn’t really been revealed to me. Sometimes I may feel useless in a situation and others I feel like I shine but that’s ok. When I see other people stepping up in a role or job that spurs joy into our ministry hosts, or brings glory to Jesus, I should get excited for them and not feel bad for myself. We are all called the Church and not one person is greater than the other. Takes a little pressure off of me to know that whatever I bring to the table is good enough for the King of kings and the Lord of lords.
These past couple days of reflection have brought me so close with God. I sort of have this weight lifted off my shoulders to know that He can’t love me any less or any more than He already does. So with that I look back at my first month and realize how much I already have grown. Someone on my team said “I don’t understand why I thought we would be great at this, it’s only month one.” It’s only chapter one out of eleven, we have so much to learn!
So conclusion to my jumbled thoughts: Through my weaknesses God will bring revival and wisdom. My own self worth isn’t measured by my mistakes or what I struggle with but who God says I am. I hope that not only will I be able to shed Jesus’s light to the world, but that his light will grow in me.
Thanks for reading,
Logan
