My battle with perfection has been a long one and it wasn’t until recently that I took a step in the right direction. I used to believe that because God asks us to try our best at everything we do like in Colossians 3:23,”Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters” then we would be good or at least mediocre at whatever we do because we are trying to do our best. I still struggle with trying to make the things I do as perfect as they can be, but I have learned that sometimes we are going to be bad at things despite our best efforts. God sometimes uses the weirdest things to show us what He needs us to understand and learning to drive stick shift in my 1972 VW beetle was that weird thing. No matter how hard I try I cannot drive without accidentally putting the car into the wrong gear or stalling in an intersection. When this happens I get super flustered and I mess up even more because I feel like everyone is watching me. I tried to get out of having to drive the beetle and I took another car because I thought that I should have been great at driving by now. That car then broke down suspiciously (hmmm hmmm God), and I was forced to drive the beetle once again. This was a very interesting experience for me and one that I was not expecting. It showed me how even though I’m not perfect at everything God still loves me and can use me for His plan. Also,recently it seemed that I was just going through the motions with God even though I was trying my best not to but, I believe that God is really preparing me and working in me for my upcoming gap year experience. If you have been going through something similar, Free To Be Me by Francesca Battistelli is a great song to listen to.
