You know the feeling I’m learning to love more and more? The feeling of being called into something and then realizing “Hmm, I’m in wayyyy over my head.” Mainly because it causes me to be in a state of complete dependence on God knowing I am definitely unable to do this on my own. And with this new season of team changes this feeling returned.
The past 4 months I have been incredible blessed to be on Zealous Love. They taught me so much about myself, called me out of past lies, laughed with me, cried with me, and I learned more about how to follow and submit to someone else’s mission. We ran around all of Zambia together, ran a café, slept within inches of each other, and really just learned what it meant to live in community. It truly has been a season of my life I will always be thankful for.
However, this new season is about to look a little different. At debrief this past week I was chosen to be raised up as one of the new squad leaders! I am stoked about this new opportunity I have been given to pour into the squad, but I’d be lying if I didn’t feel like I was in over my head. The rest of my race my main ministry will be to pour into/disciple our 43 person squad, to empower each team, to join them at their ministry site, to help cultivate a healthy living community, and to foster an environment for our squad to grow spiritually.
Being 23 and fresh out of college you can see how this new role can be a little frightening. But, I can’t express how excited I am! The feeling of being in over my head has never been more welcomed. Why would I not welcome it?? Yes it is scary, yes there will be times where I’ll probably think “I have no idea what to do…”, but it’s causing me to be more dependent on The Lord and why would I not want that?? I know The Lord has some awesome plans for this squad. He has so much He wants to show us and set us free from. I just want to be obedient in what He tells me to do in this process, because a lot of the times that’s the most difficult part. It can be easy to ask, easy to want more, but when God gives something to you that takes faith to take hold of will be we do it? I declare over our squad that we simply won’t be a squad that asks, but will be a squad that is obedient!
Please be in prayer for our squad during this transition stage. Pray that the new teams would jump right in and begin loving each other and pushing each other into greatness. Pray for See Eun (the other raised up SQL) and I as we begin this new season. Pray we are bold and that our confidence would come from The Lord!
