I can’t believe this is happening.
First, that I FINALLY made a blog post (shout out to procrastination and ADD).
Second, I am going on an 11 month long mission trip to spread joy and God’s love AND see the world (thank you Jesus for this opportunity)!!
Third, I am absolutely scared.
My first fear is for my team and our safety. If y’all haven’t noticed, it’s a crazy world out there and Christians aren’t really the most popular, especially Christian missionaries. Actually, as I was going through my application process for the Worldrace, my mom would leave articles on my bed of missionaries dying (lol thanks mom).
Then there’s a financial fear. Having deadlines creeping up on you while there are bills to be paid, gear to be bought, and unnecessary amounts of Chipotle to eat (jk… very necessary), is super scary to think that if I don’t have enough, I won’t be able to go.
Speaking of enough, that’s my other fear: being enough. Will I be good enough, strong enough, emotionally stable enough? Doubt will creep into my heart and bury itself there until I force myself to think that God has called me and laid this mission on my heart for a reason. In His eyes I am enough and in His hands I am a tool (I repeat this over and over in my head whenever I begin to doubt myself).
“Do not be afraid” is written 365 times in the bible, one for each day of the year. My trip is just 11 months, but I know some days I’ll need a little more courage than others 🙂
“I will extol the Lord at all times; His praise will always be on my lips. My soul will boast in the Lord; let the afflicted hear and rejoice. Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt His name together. I sought the Lord and He answered me. He delivered me from all my fears.” Psalm 34:1-4
*Blog title is lyrics to the song “No Longer Slaves” by Bethel Music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxkNj5hcy5E
