Let me just start by being completely honest here. I hate fundraising. I always have. God knows it. We’ve had a few strongly worded conversations about it. Because no matter how many times I think I’ve finally figured out how I’m going to pull it off, He rips that power from me and reminds me how useless I am to this process.
Every single time He reminds me that He’s got this covered and I always seem to find a way to make it my job again. It’s a constant battle we’ve been having but luckily He’s already won. Everytime I make my plan and figure out exactly how I’m going to make it all happen He makes sure that it doesn’t work out the way I’ve decided it will. He then turns it around and does it all in a way I never would have thought of.
At times these fights get a little ridiculous. We’ve almost got a full rewards system setup now where each time I start to stress out, I submit it all back to Him and in return He gives me another donation out of nowhere. His timing has been anything but a coincidence.
Not once in my life has God ever let me down. Yet continually I find myself fighting the feeling that I have to do everything on my own. Countless times He’s proven His love and care for me in ways that leave me speechless.
I remember hearing my Mom tell me a story about how when I was really young she had been worried that we wouldn’t have enough money for groceries one week. She remembered submitting her worry of not being to provide to God and had said something along the lines of “even if you just give us enough to buy some cans of tuna and Kraft dinner, I need to feed my family”. And sure enough the next day a neighbor showed up at our door with a box full of tuna and Kraft dinner.
A year ago when my sister and I moved in with our God Family they had a very short amount of time to prepare the space for 2 more people in what was already a house of 5. My Godmother later told me that every time they found another thing that was needed – more face clothes, forks, towels, a dresser, beds – God would send someone almost immediately to get that need met.
In grade 9 I found myself struggling through school without having any Christian friends to support me in my walk with God. There was no one my age at the church I went to and I was feeling very lost. After realizing that this was what was missing in my life, I spent some time in prayer and a few days later I met a girl in my geography class who would take me on my first mission trip the very next year.
God has continuously reminded me that in every situation He’s got me covered as long as I just trust Him. Matthew 6:26 says: “Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?”
When doing God’s work and submitting all you do back to Him, there is no way He would ever let you down or make you do it on your own. His love is perfect and He is capable of anything and everything.
Learning to trust Him completely throughout this process has probably been one of the most challenging things I’ve done. But it’s proven to be so rewarding. It’s through Him alone that I will reach my fundraising goal. And it’s through Him alone that I’ve been made free as a bird.
