SOOO, I haven’t posted since May… is it obvious that I am new to the bogging world? I never even updated/ informed you about how my knee surgery went…. Lets do so now:
The surgery went well. By the grace of God I was off crutches and walking within 5 days. Its been about 3 months now and I just started running (which feels great, by the way). Doc says that I will be perfectly fine in time for the trip! Isn’t God’s timing impeccable? I’d say so!
In my last blog, which since it’s been so long, let me help jog your memory, I explained that the Lord put the word healing on my heart and I just assumed it was my knee. I, along with many others, prayed that the Lord would heal my knee so the surgery wouldn’t even have to take place. I prayed expecting, but knew my plan wasn’t always God’s. Clearly the surgery happened and let me just tell you, it has been the BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED in a long time. God didn’t mean he was going to heal my knee, he was thinking bigger. Through these past 3 months, God has been healing my heart.
I had been blinded to so many things and after the surgery, it was like God lifted the veil that was over my eyes. I realized I had put my identity in everything except my Creator. I thought my grades, achievements, sorority, job, honor societies, friends, kamp, and sports dictated who I was. WRONG. Those things were in my life so I could further glorify God, not so I could put it all above Him. But the funny thing is, I really thought that these things were in my life as a mission field. The only thing missing was God. In John 15, it talks about the vine and the branches, whereas God is the Vine and we are the branches. Verse 4 says, “no branch can bear fruit by itself.” So maybe that never really hit me until now… I get it now. It all makes sense. I was trying to do everything on my own and on my own terms. I basically ruled my life. Kinda funny when you think about it…that I would think my plan was better than God’s… well He quickly showed me. It literally took God taking all of that away through this injury for me to realize that He wasn’t my number 1.
I was bummed when I found out I couldnt go to kamp this summer, but now I am so glad he kept me home. It is so hard for me to be still and listen… well it’s not so hard to be still with you are stuck in a bed…. in the back of the house…. alone. I have had a lot of God time this summer and am more in love with my Father than I have ever been. God has given me some incredible opportunities to serve Him since I moved back here form college. I am discipling a freshman in college, teaching Sunday school for 11th and 12th graders, and just started working at stepping stones, which is a school for special needs- such as autism.
God has drastically changed my heart and boy and I thankful. My favorite verse now, and its the verse that shows how far I’ve come is Philippians 3:8-9 “What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus, my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having a righteousness that is of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through having faith in Christ- the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.”
