WOW! I can’t believe its really here. I can’t believe I will actually be leaving in 5 days!!!! I have been planning on going on the World Race since last January and now the time has finally come. I leave on December 31 for LA, where I will spend New Years with some of my amazing squadmates and on January 1, I leave for NEW ZEALAND!!!!
I bet you are wondering how I am handling this sudden change- and if you aren’t, well, I’ll just tell you anyway 🙂
It has definitely been a roller coaster of emotions. There are people I have gotten closer to and don’t want to leave, there are situations I can’t wait to leave and others that I feel like I can fix, there are students at my church that I have been pouring into don’t want to be separated from, there is family time I don’t want to miss out on, I have grown so attached to working with special needs kids that even that is hard to leave… there are so many things I am going to miss and miss out on….
But here is the thing… this morning during my personal time, I focused mainly on peace. I feel like I have experience very little peace recently. This could be a direct result of a few things: 1. I haven’t spend much quality time with the Lord recently- I have put my schedule and my circumstances before Him. 2. The enemy wants me to focus on all the things I am going to miss, the people, the weddings, the childbirths- and it was working. Well not anymore. I am not going to let the enemy steel my joy anymore. I have had a hard time enjoying quality time with friends because I have been so focused and stressed about everything I have to get done. The Lord called me to go on this race. The Lord has all of this under His control. The reason I have been stressing is because I have tried to take it out of his hands- ugh, not smart.
Today is a new day. Philippians 4:7 says, “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” 1 Peter 3:11b says, “he must seek peace and pursue it.” I have prayed for God to give me peace during my last few weeks, but never have I once tried to pursue it. But good news friends, there is still time. I may have wasted time with family, friends, and God by trying to handle all of this on my own, but the Lord used my faults to teach me a valuable lesson on peace. So today I start- today I start walking in the pursuit of peace.
Please continue praying for my squad, my team, and me. I love and will miss all of you!
