Byron Bay, Australia
2.16.10
The past month and a half has been a period of waiting for me, specifically waiting on the Lord. During launch (our first week on New Zealand) a girl that I have had very few conversations with came up to me saying that the Lord put me on her heart that morning during her quiet time. She handed me a verse and explained that she had no idea why the Lord wanted her to give me this specific one. The verse is Isaiah 30:18, reading, “Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!” I had absolutely no idea how this verse pertained to me, but there was no doubt in my mind that it was from the Lord.
I believe I now have an inkling of what it means. In one of my last blogs, Try Listening… for once, I talked about how I needed to remove the plugs in my ears. That may be a part of it, but I firmly believe the Lord is answering one of my prayers. I have asked God numerous times over the past year to grow my dependency on Him- and what better way to do that than to be silent for a while, pushing me to strive harder for Him. If God were to just reveal Himself and His characteristics to me right when I asked, it wouldn’t necessarily help me become more dependent on Him, would it? I’m having to wait on my spiritual gifts to be revealed, how the Holy Spirit falls on me individually, and how the Lord specifically speaks to me. That is a whole lot of waiting, which is NOT the easiest for me. I am not the most patient person. I tend to get frustrated when I can’t figure something out or when something isn’t clear to me.
I have spent a lot of time being frustrated this month. Yesterday, I was determined not to let it get me down. I woke up and went straight to a coffee shop to be alone and try to hash this thing out with the Lord. I have been reading 1 Samuel and was determined to finish the 10 chapters I had left. Towards the end of the book, David had a lot of decisions to make. There were many situations he was placed in that could have gotten him down or stolen his joy but he consciously made the decision to glorify the Lord. This made me realize that I have not been making the decision to glorify God, instead sitting in my frustrations. Every morning I have the choice to be thankful, to love, to worship, to be positive, to encourage, etc. Today I made these choices. I am taking it one day at a time, but am striving to make this an everyday thing:)
While I’m Waiting- John Waller
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord
