Kenya, Africa
I love being a busy bee. I love having
a lot going on. I feel way more productive when I have a lot to do
than when I have all the time in the world. I tend to get more done.
When I have a schedule, I know how much free time I have and what
needs to be done during said time. I’m pretty good at planning,
actually. All throughout college, I had my planner color coded and
super organized. You may call it OCD, but I call it efficiency.
Either way, the Lord is pulling me away from this mentality.
Now,
I’m still a bit of a planner, that’s just ingrained in me, but I am
learning more and more what it looks like to rely on the Lord for
everything. I honestly don’t worry about where I am going to sleep or
what I am going to eat each day- I know that the Lord is taking care
of me, and the rest of the squad, for that matter. He has proved
Himself faithful time and time again.
The
issue I am having, however, is learning to not let the World Race
business rule my life and my conversations. I like business talk. I
like decision-making. I like my role as squad leader, but it doesn’t
define who I am. A few minutes ago, when I was talking to our Squad
Mom, Rozy McCormick, she reminded me of that. Handling business may
be something I am good at, but it is not who I am. My value is not
found in what I do, but in the woman God has created me to be.
I
am also learning that with this role, I can’t balance all that this
position entails the same way I balanced my schedule in college.
College was filled with timed activities, such as sports, work,
meetings, class, etc. You can not put a time limit on a conversation,
or even ministry for that matter. The Lord is teaching me what it
means to be intentional with my time- my time with Him, time doing
business, time investing in people, and time with the squad in
ministry.
In
a sense, the Lord is teaching me balance. I am no longer just going
to be a busy bee, but a balanced bee.
