The two weeks after my WR interview was the hardest, most emotional days I have had in a long time. When I first found out about The World Race I cried. I can't even explain why. I just felt such an unexpected urgency for people in the world. The Lord has been calling me to missions for a couple years now and I've looked into a few and even signed up for a couple but it was never…right. It wasn't his will. But with the WR I instantly knew. I wanted to go more than anything I have ever longed for before. I had peace. So I signed up. But knowing that this was what God wanted me to do didn't make it any easier. I told God in those 2 weeks
1. Lord, I work at JcPenneys remember? I don't have $15,500 ! " No but I do, I own everything remember? 16 grand is chump change to me"…..Conviction
2. God I've done so much crap in my life. Remember that one time…or when I did…, I'm not worthy Lord. "I am so proud of you, my daughter…..Conviction
3. Father, I'm just not ready. I'm not bold, or speak with authority…and I mean I've never laid hands and prayed over strangers, I need time to grow and to prepare myself. "You will never be ready…if you keep relying on your own strength. I dwell in you, you can do anything!"…..Conviction
During those two weeks God convicted me, molded me a little more, and renewed me with confidence. This is what he is calling me to do..and calling many of you to do. Maybe it's not the World Race or even missions but God is asking you to do something to glorify him, to show his love. All we have to do is submit and trust that He's got us. You see the devil will try his best to detour us from God's will. Because he knows when we submit to God's plan we see how good He is and how much He wants to bless us. We get closer to him and our faith skyrockets. The enemy will tempt us, fill us with insecurities, doubts, fears, ect. BUT, we allow him to. We give him the power! He was on my back for two whole weeks and I listened to every word he said. I almost allowed him to talk me out of the biggest blessing and faith builder God wanted to give me. It wasn't until I received my acceptance call that it clicked -We can put the devil in his place! We can tell him to go to hell! So I say don't allow him to steal your future! Call on Jesus and watch how fast the Devil hall's butt!
