Toughest Week of All

My last week of ministry was more than hard, it was unbearable to witness and something that I would not stand and support. This was a new place for the World Race (AIM) to go to. We were there to test it out and it was not a safe place for me, my team or even the children there. This quote by C.S. Lewis really runs true for me as I begin to lookback at that week. It was then, that me (and my team) stood up for what we believe in. We stood in agreement knowing that what needed to be done was not the easiest thing to do, but that it needed to be voiced and have some light shine in some of the darkest areas. 

I never knew how much I truly believed in justice, fairness to children and the freedoms of being human and not treated as a slave. We fought for these things that week. We stood for justice, fairness, freedom and truth to reign in that place.

I am still processing and chewing on all that occured that one week. The things I saw, heard, felt and expericenced are so overwhelming to me. I keep going back to God, knowing that he loves each and every individual in that place (the leaders, children & neighboring people groups). That He created them and has been calling them to Himself. He has not forgotten those children and He hears each and every one of their cries for help. 

My heart is currently ripped out of my chest in deep sorrow and confusion for the children. I pray daily for each of them. For their security, saftey, growth, knowledge, relationship with God and freedom. Right now all I seem able to do is cry and pray. Please join me in prayer. I know this has been very vague, but know that I do not feel safe to release names or even the location of where we were serving. 

• Freedom & Saftey for the children in that area of Malaysia (boys & girls)
• The Leaders who are in charge of the children-(Starting the ministry was a sacrifice to them-and we could see that. Their hearts were in the right place but we feel that there was a shift in this direction and has gone into a different direction. Pray that they would that the same passion they had to start this ministry would rekindle and for them to have accountability and a new downpour of God’s love on their lives so they can show it in a new way to the children)
• Me as I process even more of all that I expereinced that week
• My Emotional Healing
• My Physical Healing-I think I’m allergic to something here (Palm Oil???) I’m Itchy ALL over!
• My Financial Support-I have not been able to meet the support goals set before me.