so here I sit in Portland, OR looking back over the past 3 days of my life and my mind is blown. I’m not sure why my mind is blown, because as I reflect on my whole walk with Christ it’s one adventure after the next.
That being said…. here is what is going on.
As you can read in my this blog, I felt it was clear Portland was my next stop. Now I’m in Portland and each day I get wooed by the Creator as I see the majesty of His creation. I’m more in love than ever.
I feel led to work at Providence Hospital and anytime I start to think about applying anywhere else I get an uneasiness and I feel the Lord say trust me. So I am. I had a job interview there last week, which I would say went well, but I didn’t have peace about the job.
I prayed that the Lord would shut that door if it wasn’t from Him. The door was shut and well for the first time ever I got turned down from a job. But for some reason I was happy about it. Weird.
What the heck was going on?
By the way, I still feel like I am supposed to work there, I just understand why I had that uneasiness. The timing wasn’t right. And well He had something better planned.
One thing I’ve been learning lately as I process through all the events of this past year is if I focus on the events of my story I get a “victim” mentality, but when I focus on God it becomes His story. Just like the Bible, it’s His story and when we are obedient to Him we become part of His story. I prayed He would continue to write me into His story.
On Monday I went to PHOP (Portland house of prayer) and while I was praying I had a crazy vision that felt so real. I was in Manila, Philippines with the girls from Wipe Every Tear. I couldn’t shake the image so I emailed the guy who runs the ministry.
His response was that I was the 4th person in 3days with a similar email. So I prayed into it. I felt urgency. Like I needed to go now. I didn’t know why so I called the church I attend here to use their prayer room.
I needed silence and solitude ASAP.
Well… after I had just gotten confirmation that their room was only available at the exact time I needed it, a fighter jet flew right in front of me. I know that doesn’t seem significant buy oh let me just say, it is.
In Uganda as we rafted the Nile a fighter jets flew over our boats and did flips. It was rad. (by the way rad is a word I picked up here in the NW) then in Swaziland during prayer one night a girl got a vision for me: there were 3-4 fighter jets flying in unison a doing a blue angels routine and I was in an old timey Amelia Earhart plane. I was being a goofy and doing flips and well being a bug-a-boo to the other pilots. After praying into that we felt the Lord was saying that my walk looks different. It has no strategy to it, but it is fun and my own and although it might be annoying to some we are all heading in the same direction.
So when that plane flew right in front of me I had multiple flashbacks and just laughed because well yeah this is different for sure. And then the Lord whispered to me “let me write this into the story” chills. I got chills that went from my head to my toes.
I went to the prayer room and just worshipped. Then read then worshipped then prayed. Then worshipped and then read and I turned to a page in my bible where I had written “He has called me to travel around the world for him… who am I to be selfish? & not do what He asks.” Ahh…
After I felt clear I was supposed to go and go soon, I went
home. I went to my roommates desk to look at a map because well I don’t know. And the book Love Does caught my eye.
So I thought it would be fun to read a random chapter so I just said Lord lead me and flipped to the page that read this “in the end there was just a man, an idea, and an invitation without a lot of details. The disciples were schooled and ordinary… yet they did not need the details because they were on an adventure with a father who wants to take them. You don’t need to know everything when your with someone you trust.“
That being said… the Lord is taking me on an adventure. I leave mid November to spend two and a half weeks in the Philippines at Wipe Every Tear just to spend time with the girls and the ministry. No agenda. Just going because He wants to write this into the story. And I don’t know many details. Just going on an adventure with a father who wants to take me. Just trying to figure out all the final logistical stuff.
