So at the begining of each month, I pray and try to get a word from the Lord to study through the month. This month I got the words lion and love.
It all started when I met Kenny. He is one of Seth Sr's friends that came to our last debrief. He commented on one of my blogs after reading a blog Seth Sr posted including part of my story.
Once I got his comment I felt an urgency to write him back. I had no clue who he was, but I pressed respond and started the email. Later that day, I was talking to someone and they told me that he was coming to our debrief.
What the heck? Ah, I got so excited to meet him 2 days later in Hua Hin.
We had lunch a couple of times and hit it off. He told me about Wipe Every Tear, the anti-sex trafficking ministry in the Philippines he founded.
We had a connection that is hard to explain, almost like a father/daughter relationship.
Okay, so previous to him going Thailand for debrief, someone sent him the lyrics to the Eagles' song, "Lyin' Eyes." I don't really know the whole back story as to how he got that song. Anyways, Kenny just looked me dead in the eyes and and told me that he thought those lyrics were for me. He said you can't hide your LION eyes. That's when the word lion started.
Normally I don't get comments on my eyes, but during that debrief I got lots. I knew there was something God was trying to show me through what Kenny had said about "lion eyes".
This weekend, oh this beautiful Chinese New Year weekend, we went to Penang. Such a cool city by the way!! It was in Penang that the Lord revealed what the word lion and love meant in relation to me. On Friday night we went to this thing called PenHOP (Penang House of prayer).
That night at PenHop, the whole theme of the night was pretty much, the Lion of Judah. Ha, of coarse it was.
We ran around dancing and singing and fist pumping to "Hail Hail the Lion of Judah… How wonderful You are"
Here are some of the revelations He gave me that night.
Some truth's I know. God is our creator. God is good. He is the same yestday, today and tomorrow. He loves us. That NEVER, EVER changes. He is jealous for us, jealous for our attention, for our love, and for our relationship.
For I the LORD (Yahweh) your God am a jealous God…. Exodus 20.5
I started thinking really hard about Him always being the same. (I am a thinker) Recongnizing He NEVER changes is such a hard concept to grasp. It has always been head knowledge, but never heart knowledge. His love for us NEVER changes no matter where we are. If we are the closest we have ever been to Him or running away from Him… His love towards us NEVER changes.
Once I got a grasp of that I fell in love with LOVE all over again. 🙂
God is LOVE. He is patient and kind. He isn't arrogant or rude. He isn't irritable or resentful.
Oh Jesus, sweet, sweet Jesus, the lamb. He is so sweet when He convicts us of our unrighteous acts with a sweet tender love. Sometimes we continue into the pit though.
This weekend I realized I was in a pit that has been getting deeper in for a bit, because I wasn't listening to the lamb. Jesus has been sweetly convicting me of my silly, worldly, comparing, self-countious thoughts, but I continued heading down.
Finally I cried out to God. On my hands and knees tears rolling down my face and gave it all up to Him.
I told Him I can't fight it on my own. I told Him my mind always goes there and I don't want it to.
Then I got to experience the Lion of Judah come down with a roar and take that stronghold from me, because He is jealous for the love and attention I have given to unrighteous thoughts instead of giving them to Him. Ah, so stinking freeing.
By the way look up IHOP as well. So awesome.
On another note… we are half way through the race. Seems so fast, but I also look back to Guatemala and that seems like forever ago. Anyways, yay! 🙂
