Thank you to everyone who read my blog entitled Weariness and responded with encouragement.  Sometimes I still feel very weary, but the Lord has picked me up and renewed me in His presence, and continues to do so every day.  While on the race there have been many times where what we are facing completely knocks me off of my feet and I have to learn again how to gain all of my peace, strength, and joy from the Lord – and it has happened again.  I imagine that I will be facing this my whole life, but I pray I learn how to stay and remain in that place deep inside of Him without ever coming out!  

 
Every morning I wake up desperately crying out for Him, and every morning He satisfies my desires.  Every evening I lay down and bring the things from the day (or something else on my mind from the past year) to Him and just lay them at His feet.  

There is an article I posted before I left for the race where Rolland Baker addresses the need to live out of relationship with Jesus.  He says,

 
                              
                                                              Heidi and Rolland Baker (missionaries in Mozambique)
 
What motivates us to keep going? What puts energy into our spirits when we run out of answers and resources? How do we stay patient and upbeat when the outlook seems bleak, yet again? Where does our power to live, serve and give come from? The question is important, because missionaries do get tired, discouraged and down. Christians of all kinds run out of motivation, no matter how much they have. Leaders with huge responsibilities lose their peace and joy. Ministries become more like businesses, and preachers more like sales managers. But what makes the Kingdom run? What is the fuel that fires us effortlessly? What is the real thing?


…There is a secret place, a hiding place, a lower place, a holy place that exceeds our dreams. It is not found in anything external and impersonal. It is not found simply in activity, sacrifice and dedication. It is not found in goals, projects, productions and progress. It is not found in finances and growth. It may be missed entirely even when preaching, teaching, training and discipling. It may be forgotten completely when evangelizing and praying for the sick. The greatest and most powerful gifts don’t necessarily contain it. Even ministry to the poor may become an impersonal effort that misses that greatest and most intensely motivating creation of God, that supreme display of His glory: relationship!

                                       
 
Intimacy with God is the only thing that keeps me going.  He is everything that I need.  Jesus has been singing me a country love song lately called “Bring It On Home” by Little Big Town.  Oh, how I love those Winning Arms….
 
You got Someone here that wants to make it alright


Someone that loves you more than life, right here
You got Winning Arms that’ll hold you tight
A hand to lead you all through the night, right here
I know your heart can get all tangled up inside
But don’t you keep it to yourself

When your long day is over
And you can barely drag your feet
The weight of the world is on your shoulders
I know what you need
Bring it on home to Me

Don’t you know I know you like the back of my hand
Don’t you know I’m gonna do all that I can, right here
I’m gonna lie with you till you fall asleep
When the mornin’ comes I’m still gonna be right here
Take your worries and just drop them at the door
Baby, leave it all behind