Recently on The World Race, due to some ITunes credit and
gift cards, we have started watching Grey’s Anatomy. It’s a great way to bond with t
he girls, well really just
Blair and Ash. We watched a few
episodes and the finale from last season and have even almost caught up to the
regular schedule at home. What can
I say? The internet in Europe is good.
Some people think Grey’s is trashy, and truthfully I agree, but I still enjoy it and Meredith Grey has good thoughts.
Some of her recent ones fit perfectly for situations I am currently
facing, so please read on.
In 38 days I will be back on US soil. Just when living out of a backpack has
become normal, when the constant change of cultures, languages and food is all
I know, it is hard to imagine life at home. What will it be like to return to a place where English is
the first language? Am I really
going to be able to buy what I want to eat again? Where will I live?
What car am I going to drive?
Do I want to go back to school? What happened to those 5 girls I have
been around every day for the last 11 months? How long can I visit people and tell them about my year
before I have to get a real job?
What kind of job do I even want? Am I ever going to get married?
WHAT THE HECK DOES MY FUTURE LOOK LIKE????
Here are Meredith Grey’s thoughts on the future and I think
they are fantastic. She says, “We
spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future,
trying to predict the future, as if figuring it out will somehow cushion the
blow, but the future is always changing.
The future is the home of our deepest fears and our wildest hopes. But one thing is certain, when it
finally reveals itself, the future is never the way we imagined it.” I
couldn’t tell you in January and I can’t tell you now what my future looks
like. Even if I try to plan it and
figure it out, it will most likely change. This year I have faced some of my deepest fears and I have
experienced and seen things beyond my wildest hopes & dreams. I would never have predicted half the
things that have happened this year or that God has done. I believe that will be true of next
year and years to follow, wherever He puts me and in whatever I end up
doing. I trust Him completely. His faithfulness and hand has been all
over every step I have ever taken. Why do I allow myself to worry that it would
be any different at this point in my life?
So for now I am done worrying. I am not going to try and find a car on craig’s list beforeI get home or a job through some website.
The only future I can talk about is the holidays with my family and
friends in NJ and NC. I mean I do
have some plans for a stellar road trip across the US…and I promise a blog in
the future about that. For now
though I am going to chill and listen to my friend Meredith: “Because all the worrying and all of
the making of plans for things that could or could not happen…it only makes
things worse. So walk your dog, or
take a nap, just whatever you do, STOP WORRYING! Because the only cure for paranoia is to be, here, just as
you are.” Today, October 15, 2009, I am here in Kiev, Ukraine.
I am hanging out
with university students and young professionals,helping them with their English. I
have met some of the coolest kids in the world, who have been rescued from the
street and love to play foosball, uno, and wrestle. I am living in an apartment right off the Metro with 14
girls and I love it. As for my
future, I trust God completely.
It’ll probably be something crazy and unexpected, but if God tells me to
go, and His presence and promise is evident, I will go where He tells me. Matthew 6:34 says, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
