I am going to just start typing, which could potentially be dangerous because there is so much floating around in my heart and mind 
that I may lose you. Here we go: This week we joined 3 other World Race Squads, Alumni and the World Race staff and founders here in Brasov, Romania. Honestly, it was really the last place I wanted to be this week. I was not excited about being around that many people, about sleeping in a tent in the cold, the strange meat and cheese they were serving for breakfast or any of the “Awakening” they were praying for to happen in each of us. My attitude flat out stunk and I knew it. My tendency when I get that way is to buck the system, to do something stupid, to be reckless, and to just not care. There was a lot of potential for that the first day and a half and I was choosing to walk in that attitude. I was knit picking things being said, I wasn’t engaging in worship, I was allowing situations from back home to distract me from entering into the presence of the Lord and I wasn’t making great choices. I knew I was allowing the enemy to win and I also knew he was trying hard to distract me because God wanted to do something big in my life this week. We serve a God that will not relent until He has every bit of our heart, but once again the choice was up to me. He gives us that freedom. Was I going to change my posture and allow Him to move in and through me or was I going to walk in my own sinful pride and waste another opportunity to meet with my Father?
that I may lose you. Here we go: This week we joined 3 other World Race Squads, Alumni and the World Race staff and founders here in Brasov, Romania. Honestly, it was really the last place I wanted to be this week. I was not excited about being around that many people, about sleeping in a tent in the cold, the strange meat and cheese they were serving for breakfast or any of the “Awakening” they were praying for to happen in each of us. My attitude flat out stunk and I knew it. My tendency when I get that way is to buck the system, to do something stupid, to be reckless, and to just not care. There was a lot of potential for that the first day and a half and I was choosing to walk in that attitude. I was knit picking things being said, I wasn’t engaging in worship, I was allowing situations from back home to distract me from entering into the presence of the Lord and I wasn’t making great choices. I knew I was allowing the enemy to win and I also knew he was trying hard to distract me because God wanted to do something big in my life this week. We serve a God that will not relent until He has every bit of our heart, but once again the choice was up to me. He gives us that freedom. Was I going to change my posture and allow Him to move in and through me or was I going to walk in my own sinful pride and waste another opportunity to meet with my Father? 
Here’s what happened: Day 2 – God spoke truth to me in a simple conversation with a friend at McDonald’s. In love she shared some similar feelings on my issues, but pointed me back to Christ. I listened because over this year, she has earned my trust and respect. I have seen Christ in her life and I value the words she speaks. That night several people prayed over me…people who knew the struggle and people who didn’t. God spoke to me through their prayers. I was reminded that prayer is not only to God, but also for the edification of the person you praying for. Note to self, pray for others more to build them up. Day 3 – I felt alive. I felt like the person I know God has created to be and I was able to walk in it. I love people and as my team claims I will talk to anything that talks back. I love to hear their 
stories and to share my own. I believe every conversation happens for a reason. I had an amazing belated birthday lunch with 2 of my favorite people on this trip. And then I got to sit and chat with a new friend, Hollie, for over 2 hours about this crazy journey we are on. She is 2 months in and I am 9 months in, but we sat and talked about the things God was doing in our lives like we had known each other for a long time. I believe it is because our heart beats for the same thing. We desire to seek the face of our Father, see His 
kingdom furthered, and claim the inheritance He has for us. The night was more worship and teaching. I could write a whole blog about songs this year, but as I sang the words of Jenn Johnson – “Where you go, I’ll go, what you say, I’ll say, what you pray, I’ll pray,” I knew in my heart, those were my words and my prayer. Andrew Sherman told us that night, “He is the Word, you are the voice.” We are the voice that has been sent out to proclaim truth to the nations. I still can’t believe He has chosen me to be a part of that. Day 4 – A day I will never forget. The morning started with worship. I was late, as usual and as I walked in looking for my friends on the squad, I recognized the voices up front. H-squad was leading worship and I knew God’s presence was going to fall on this place. A sister I have grown to love
this year sang “Revelation Song” and tears streamed down my face as she sang. God was in this place. He was speaking to each person in this room. That afternoon our squad leaders prayed over us and prophesied. Don’t freak out – by prophesy – I mean edify, encouraged and built up. They affirmed things they had seen in our lives this year and the direction they believed God was leading us. It was a powerful and encouraging time. Later that evening we gathered as a body and we prayed for the nations. They had flags all over the room and I knew Haiti was the flag I was looking for. As I prayed, I wept, God was laying things on my heart for people I don’t even know…I know He was the one weeping through me, 
He was the one burdening my heart. I was pretty overwhelmed. A year of traveling and seeing the world and my heart still beats for that country. They will experience freedom one day and I want to be a part of it. As the night continued on, He was asking me for a deeper trust, He was confirming calls on my life by those who came to pray and He released things from deep within me. I know there is stuff inside of me that I have not even begun to scratch the surface on and God knows I want them. I have been crying out for them all year. That is why I abandoned everything I knew and signed up for this crazy journey.
There is so much more I could tell you, but I will stop here. This week God woke me up. He reminded me that we can argue 
theology into the ground like great fathers of the faith have since the beginning of time, but at the end of the day it is about a relationship with God and people. We can and should be grounded in truth, but we are called to worship in Spirit and truth. God is teaching me new things everyday this year about walking in the Spirit. Praise Him, Praise my Father, who has chosen me, who has called me out of darkness and into His wonderful light. It is an honor and a privilege to tell the nations about Him.
theology into the ground like great fathers of the faith have since the beginning of time, but at the end of the day it is about a relationship with God and people. We can and should be grounded in truth, but we are called to worship in Spirit and truth. God is teaching me new things everyday this year about walking in the Spirit. Praise Him, Praise my Father, who has chosen me, who has called me out of darkness and into His wonderful light. It is an honor and a privilege to tell the nations about Him.Travel Update: We are departing at the crack of dawn tomorrow morning to get on what we believe to be a 36 hour train ride to Kiev, Ukraine. We’re still unsure of exactly what we are doing or if Kiev is even right where we will be, but that is where we’re headed. Pray for safe travel and direct leading into ministry opportunities. More to come soon! My final pic is 2 of 7 Camels that will forever be close to my heart. I’m praying for you all you Camels!!!
