In the past month I have experienced every emotion possible. From being excited to feeling so overwhelmed. From being angry to weeping with joy. I’m a laid back person but this past month I feel like I’m bipolar! I don’t get it! One minute I am talking to random people or friends about going on the World Race and the next I am freaking out thinking I am making the worst decision ever. I know that is the enemy telling me I am not worthy to go on the race and that this is a mistake, that I heard God wrong. Maybe I am supposed to support someone going on the race? Maybe I was just supposed to read a racers’ blog? So I let the enemy run with it and tell me lies and making me feel awful.
This verse, even though I have heard it so many times before, has helped me so much this past month:
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you- 1 Peter 5:7
He does not want us to worry about anything, not even the little things. He knows what you’re going through, all you gotta do is ask Him to help and throw that worry on Him.
People have asked what I’m doing after graduation and I tell them about the WR. They ask why? I say why not. But really, why I am going on the WR? Is it because I don’t know what to do with my life? I just like to travel? It will be so much fun? Answer: God has called me to go on the WR. Why? Not really sure yet and I don’t think I’ll know until I’m actually on it. I do know it’s not a vacation, it’s 11 months that I will be showing God’s love to the ones who need it the most. I will hold orphans as they sleep. I will help build a school for kids to get an education. I will talk to prostitutes and show them there’s more to life than selling themselves on the streets. I will go door to door sharing His word. I will be praying for the lost, sick and broken. I will be doing whatever God is calling me to do. There are no limits with God.
God has kept reminding me that He has called me to do this race and He will get me through it. It will not be easy, there will be sacrifices, there will be tears, there will be pain, but God will be there right beside me the whole way. He showed me a visual of me being on a brick wall overlooking a city, watching the sunset and just taking everything in. He showed me that He was there sitting beside me, watching the sunset and reminding me why I am on the race and that He will never leave me. A lot of us feel like God is calling us to do something big or small, but we think we can’t get through it or we may fail. Truth is, we will fail if we don’t let God in and guide us. There is no way I could go through the things I have without the presence of God. He is always with us, just cry out to Him because He is ALWAYS listening.
So this is what’s going on in my life:
- I prayed for my cousin who has cancer in front of my family twice! (we do not pray much as a family so that was amazing). God is so great and I think this experience is bringing my family together and I fully believe my cousin will be healed
- God has helped me forgive so many people that have hurt me in the past.
- I have gotten quite a bit of support without doing support letters yet! God is so awesome!
- God showed me pride I have in my life. I am working on it!
- I have been hunting with my family this season! Best way to bond, being outdoors
- My family has been so supportive through all this. I am truly blessed to have such great parents and the best sister. The rest of my family has been so amazing. I’m going to have to find a way to skype with all of them while I’m gone.
- I have the best friends who have been there for me when I stress out about the WR. I don’t now what I would do without them!
- Made business cards for the WR to hand out during fundraisers.
- Growing my hair out, hopefully getting dreads before the race!
- This is my last week as a college student! Graduating Saturday!
- I am moving home after graduation until the race so I will be working for my dad to get money and also doing fundraisers
Here are some pictures of my family!
My sister and I with my dad!
God Bless!
