As I’m sure most of you know by now, we are stuck in Bangkok
due to riots and protests that have completely shut down the airport. We are
located very far away from the chaos and are safe here, but we are still unsure
of when we will be able to board a flight to Africa. My optimism keeps telling
me “I’m sure we’ll leave tomorrow…” but it’s been four extra days and there’s
still no telling when flights will open up. However, rest assured we are enjoying our extra days here (more on that in another blog).
As
we continue to be stuck in Bangkok AKA World Race purgatory, I have been
reflecting over the past 5 months and who I am becoming. I feel like I have
posted many stories of our ministries and the people who have touched my heart,
but not much about what the Lord is doing in ME. That is mostly because those internal
works of the Spirit are much more difficult to put into words. Here are some of
my jumbled thoughts about what the Lord is teaching me and who I am becoming:
I am loved with greater intimacy and intensity than I ever realized.
I am delighted in (Isaiah 62:4).
My eyes have been opened to Kingdom; my heart is enthralled and there is NO turning back!
I have to lose my life piece by piece in order to save my life.
I am being asked to give up EVERYTHING. When I think I have, another round comes of the Lord asking for more (Luke 14:33).
I need abandonment and uncomfortable surroundings to expose my selfishness and entitlements.
My familiar abiding places, the places I usually turn for comfort, don’t bring life. Only Jesus can satisfy.
I will never fit into this world, and that’s ok.
I can always give up more than I thought and love more than I knew I was capable of.
God speaks often and with incredible intimacy. I am learning to listen more.
My walk with the Lord is personal and intimate, but it is not meant to be solitary.
My life isn’t mine; I have no rights to it.
I am being strengthened and fortified for lasting change.
There is always more of God and He will never leave me where I am.
I don’t need nearly as much as I thought I did, but I need God more than I ever realized.
I am completely free in Christ.
I don’t have to be anything, except loved by God.
Whatever the cost– Jesus and His Kingdom are worth it!
I wage war with the fierce tenderness of Christ’s love in my heart and the unshakable power of God’s Word in my mouth.
I am a Daughter of the King, the Beloved of Christ, and the Voice of the Spirit who lives inside of me.
Stay tuned for more over the next 6 months of our journey!
