This spoke to me. And reminded me of training camp and how
God speaks.
“The darkness hides the true size of fears and lies and
regrets,” Jesus explained. “The truth is they are more shadow than reality, so
they seem bigger in the dark. When the light shines into the places they live
inside you, you start to see them for what they are.”
…
“So what do I do now?”
“What you’re already doing, [Lisa], learning to live loved.
It’s not an easy concept for humans. You have a hard time sharing anything. So,
yes, what we desire is for you to re-turn to us, and then we come and make our
home inside you, and then we share. The friendship is real, not merely
imagined. We’re meant to experience this life, your life, together, in a
dialogue, sharing the journey. You get to share in our wisdom and learn to love
with our love, and we get… to hear you grumble and gripe and complain, and …”
– Wm. Paul
Young, The Shack
Somewhere in Lake Lanier are my burdens.
They lived deep down inside of me. Big and scary, in
appearance anyway.
In actuality they were words holding me back, telling me to
keep my mouth shut, telling me I had control, telling me what to do and not to
do, reminding me of what happened in the past, telling me I was a failure, telling
me I couldn’t be used. These were the lies.
During my 2 ½ hour hike around Lake Lanier, I felt that God
was telling me how I needed to give Him my whole heart, my whole mind, my whole
soul, my whole strength. I began to understand more clearly… Let go of my
broken heart, quiet the lies in my mind, let him have my soul (since sin
clearly owns my body) and to give all my talents and desires to him. Yet,
somehow… I missed something. Or, I thought I did. After finishing the hike, I
was told that there was something else God needed to tell me. I didn’t like
this. I finished the hike! I’m done! But I returned to the water… to talk to God. I
had no desire to, however. I was angry that I didn’t solve my emotional puzzle
on my own. So I sat there, angry, skipping rocks and throwing sticks into the
water.
Then, it clicked. (stay tuned for Part 2)
