In Thailand, I have played the role of Jesus for many skits,
at church, in villages, for the youth group. Again and again, I am Jesus. Maybe
it is because I’m the only one with short hair, maybe it is because I’ve got the role down or maybe it is because God is still teaching
me something. Probably the latter.
A White V-Neck, a white bandanna, and a white paper heart;
I am Jesus.
Lesson #1: worthiness and purpose.
I ask myself Why Me? I am not worthy enough to play
Jesus. Lies began to surface: I am the Opposite of Jesus.
But God has called me to be Jesus. Through the REAL Jesus,
he sees me as his innocent daughter, white as snow. Do away with the old identity, put on the new identity:
Called.
Though He has called me literally to play the part of Jesus, He has also
called me to do greater things. He has called me to be Jesus to the world,
to show His kindness, His mercy, and His grace. I have this ability and the
tools to do this, not my own accord, but because he called me, so I trust Him
to provide the Way. After all, He is the Way. We, as the church, are called to be Jesus in this world also, to be
His hands and feet. Why would we decline
that offer, our very purpose in life?
Let us not fear our destiny.
Lesson #2: Christ-like Attitude.
At a village in Ubon, we learned a new meaning of “being
flexible.” Thinking we were just doing an afternoon prayer walk, we soon found out things
changed. We wouldn’t be home by dinner to enjoy homemade chicken wings and grilled
cheese; instead, we would stay at the village for dinner and perform a program
including worship, a drama, and a testimony. And this in a village that reminded me too much of Cambodia.
Don’t worry guys… I’ll be Jesus. We quickly threw together quickly
something over dinner: the “heart” skit, a testimony, and dancing to
“Oh, Happy Day.” Easy, we’ve done it before.
But I’ll speak for the team: OUR hearts weren’t in the right
place. A spirit of confusion was present. We didn’t want rice again. We wanted
to go “home”. We had selfish attitudes. I couldn’t “play Jesus” and my team couldn’t talk about Jesus with bad attitudes.
God convicted me as soon as worship started and my
attitude changed. I heard “Here I am to worship” in a new light.
The words in my head flowed and my fingers quickly typed them into
Notes on iPhone.
God, Here I am to
worship.
IN my actions and my
attitude.
We don’t always have
a plan, but you do.
So move through us
anyway.
May we lay down our
selfish motives so that you can move easily.
I love you Lord.
Move through me.
I am humbled. I am humbled to serve His people in this way.
I am humbled to hold a white paper heart. I am humbled to play Jesus, day in
and day out. So, so humbled. Oh, Happy Day.
