I wake up at 5am morning this morning with a sense of excitement, nervousness, a little anxiety and pure joy. Today is the day that I fly to training camp, the day that I get to start this crazy journey called to World Race, the day I start the next great chapter in my life. The funny thing about all this is I started of this next great chapter with a big flop. I woke up this morning realizing that I can't find my Teva sandals anywhere and I need them for camp. I then spend the next thirty minutes tearing apart my car, house and my room very quietly (cause my sister was still sleeping). I am so frustrated, wondering "why God?" "Why this morning?" My mom came down stair wondering what all the ruckus was about and in about five minutes she finds my shoes buried on the coach. As I was driving to the airport this morning, thankfully wearing my tevas, I was thinking about the point of this morning. I realized that God was reminding me that this week as well as this next year will be a time of relying on other people more than ever. Living in 11 different cultures in intense community I will be out of my comfort zone, never fully understanding what's going on and going through weird and difficult situations. Instead of being my independent self, I will need to be relying on God and relying on the people around me to support me, help me find things that I loose (cause that will happen) and just pour into my life. Now this is not a one way street. I will need to be that person for my team mates and squadmates as well! But as training camp begins, I am excited and ready to let go of my independence and focus on being dependent on God and his grace! Here's to the next week of chaos! It's going to be so hard but soooooo amazing!
