I’m officially sitting on U.S. soil in Fort Lauderdale, Florida. I’ve said goodbye to half of my beautiful B Squad. Tears have been shed the entire week leading up to this day. There’s no way I have more tears to give.
I am not sure what to feel. I have the same pit in my stomach that I left the States with 11 months ago. The pit that comes with nerves, excitement, and the unknown of what’s to come.
I am sitting on my last flight to Texas, now. There are no other humans on this flight that I know. The first time since October 2017 that I didn’t travel with at least 18 of my friends. Tears have threatened to flow multiple times.
So many emotions have been building all at once. If I think too much about it I know I’m gonna ugly cry.
B Squad, you have forever changed my life and changed me as a human. Thank you for loving me in spite of all of my flaws that I couldn’t hide from you in such close quarters. Thanks for seeing the Godly characteristics in me, but also calling me higher when my flesh came out instead. Ugh, I just love you guys.
I’d write more but, again, I am about to ugly cry so I’ll just stop there. Thank you, Lord, for a community that was so hard to leave.
Even in the midst of all the feels, I am also incredibly excited to see my family and friends. Gosh, I just love them a lot. I can’t wait to dwell with them. I am on my way to San Antonio, and one of my sisters and brother-in-law have no idea that they will see me today. It’s gonna be so sweet.
These last 11 months have been wild. It’s surreal to come to terms with the fact that this season of life is closing, and another one is opening.
I don’t know how it’s going to look to unpack all that I just walked through. It all somehow already feels like a distant memory, but I pray that the Lord will reveal things slowly and continue to walk me through this beautiful relationship with Him. Please be patient with me as I try to navigate this season of life.
I am so thankful for all of you. Thank you for following my stories. Thank you for praying earnestly for me. Thank you for providing financially. The Lord used all of you to provide and bring me into this life changing experience that has impacted me more than I could have imagined.
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