I've been quite outspoken my whole life. Some might even call me feisty. I have always recognized my ability to speak boldly, and I've never had reservations about it.
That is, until I started liking boys. And I learned that boys, and most people in general, favor passive girls. Girls that are laid back. Girls that go with the flow.
And I longed to be one of those girls.
Since being on the race, however, I've discovered that there is a big difference between being laid back and being passive. My friends and family from back home might shake their heads in disbelief when I say that I have grown to be a fairly laid back person. Really, I promise. My neurotic, OCD reigns have loosened quite a bit. And for that, I'm truly grateful. Because it makes living in community that much easier and that much more fun.
I have not, however, grown to be passive. I see things with God's eyes. I see the potential in people. And I'm not afraid to speak those things out when I feel the Spirit's prompting. I'm a very active person in that sense, and for that, I'm also truly grateful. Because it makes me who I am.
It might not be deemed desirable by everyone, and it might not make me popular, but it makes me me.
And I like me. A lot.
So I no longer desire to be passive. I no longer desire to be anything other than what God desires me to be; His beautiful, honest, and bold daughter full of wisdom and love.
Today marks the halfway point of the race. How exciting to look back and reflect on the past five and a half months and think of all the people I've met and all the ways I've grown. I'm excited for the second half of the race, but I need your support in order to continue. I am still in need of $3,200 by the end of February to stay on the field. Just like Mordecai said to Esther, the Jews would be saved with or without her, but she was chosen as queen for just a time as this. I believe my funding will come in regardless, but God will surely bless those who partner with him. Thanks in advance!
Happy Valentine's Day!
